My book of poems

Apology

Jordan... Ik that you don't wanna talk to me but I wanna start by saying that your the only other person that understands me and I love you for that....believe me when I say that it isn't my fault.....I'm srry for everything...

Every time I made you cry
Every time I got you pissed at me
Every time I fucked everything up..

Its all my fault and I'm srry....

Not only did I lose a good friend but I also lost my sister my best friend my love my heart my soul and its all because of one person and I feel like fuxking bullshit because I let it all happen....not one time did you use me for anything or disrespect me.....your so sweet and kind hearted and forgiving and honest and funny and talented in every way.....

The fact that I let this all happen already fucked my head up full time...and I got you upset.....

And now you probably hate me for it...I lost your trust and I feel so retarded for it.....

There is so much that I want back and if I could do it all over again I would...and I wouldn't let this happen .....ik your mad and probably won't read this but plz understand that I'm srry....and I'm crying because I lost someone that meant the world to me...its bad enough that I already fucked up my life but I don't want to ruin yours ..you have your whole life ahead of you..... And me being in your life just made it hard....I added pain and more problems to your life and im srry for that too.....but I'm mostly srry for making you feel betrayed....in the time that you wanted to talk to me and you needed me...I wasn't there and it's fucking sad because that was all screwed up because of one person....

I Miss the conversations we had.... All the laughter and the happiness... Just seeing you happy put a smile on my face everyday...with out you my days are dark and gloomy.....your the peanut butter that goes with my jelly, the cream in my bagel,the sprinlkes that go on my ice cream.... Ik that that's all corny but you mean that much to me and if I could earn your trust back I'd be the happiest eighth grader in world...because no one can compare to you.....your so different and your unique in your own way...and I love you for it....

I'm just srry for every thing......
I really am a horrible person and I messed up everything for you and I'm srry from the bottom of my heart ...

Not even....I have a lot of srry that is built up in my heart and you deserve it all......I'm srry.......