Fuck You, Rant Book

When i feel alone, My mind just races...

I'm going to start with my depression when I'm down and you feelings get inside me and bring me down voices in my head, telling me to just end it all to get my only friend out which is the razor, When that razor touches my skin it's like an adrenaline rush going through me and I just don't want to stop I want to keep going I want to get deeper and deeper until there is nothing left, When tears run down my face with makeup following it while the razor is tearing my skin apart all because of the bullying and hatred I get from others, I mean people don't see what's its doing to me at all people just think it's all fun and games people don't know that the words and negative things get into my head and make me start believing every word someone has or is saying to me, I wish it's would all just go back in time when there wasn't any internet, I mean it was so much better back then no one could get to you through social media, but now they can if you go to school and people continuously bring you down calling you every name under the sun don't you just think to yourself why can't I get away from this why can't it just all go away or even when will I get a break from this shit?, Yeah you use to be able to like as soon as school finished you could go home for the night and escape it but now days you can't you get texts, messages, Posts, photos, name calling, Comments, Shit that you cannot stand because someone wants to get to you someone wants to judge you for who you are someone wants to just bring you down and make you feel worthless it does fucking hurt and sometimes you just wish that you were never born into the life that you are now walking cos all you get is hate from people who just want to judge and bring you down for who you are, what you wear, how you speak, how you act around others I mean no one is perfect and no one is defiantly not the same people are eager to just bring you down and get inside your head and Sometimes don't you just wish you could kill yourself just like drop everything and go so you're in peace yeah well I do but I can't do that I would never be able to but I just sometimes wish I could get away where no one would find me.