2am rants

+ sleep +

You should understand that I don't like sleep.

I don't have insomnia (as far as i know), either.

But if it's like, 10:30pm, it's too early for me. I usually sleep at 11:30pm, so it's still early for some people who sleep at 2:00am. If I go to bed at 9:00pm, I'll be awake for two hours either thinking, staring at the wall, or just not doing anything.

Before I sleep, I don't want to sleep, and that's always been the case ever since I was young, because I remember watching Noddy on Play House Disney at 1am when I was around seven. The minute I am asleep though, the only reason you'll get me up is A: it's Sunday, and we have to go to Mass (i prefer going on saturdays, but fam likes to wake up early obviously), or there's something I'm going to do, like watch a livestream or go watch something on TV like the VMAs.

I'm a pretty heavy sleeper, because I can sleep through my alarm, but if the night before I have something planned to do, like wake up early because One Direction's new album is out, I don't even need an alarm. I'll be up by six in the morning.

So it's time to tell a hilarious story:

Yesterday, it was 11:00pm, I was eating and watching Mark's Wilford Warfstache bloopers video right after it published, and I've done all the stuff I needed to do and literally I was just ready to go to sleep, because I was tired. I was about to go bed when bam, the power went out. I was annoyed, because it's hot in this country basically 24/7, whether it be May or December. I got myself a small fan, and I was already ALMOST ASLEEP, when the power came back on and my family started screaming that it was back on, which pissed me off. I was really tired and I just wanted to sleep, and by the time I did get to sleep, it was around 12:30am.

Around 4am, the power went out again, and I woke up because it was hot, and I fell asleep at around 5am, because it took that long for the power to get back on.

By the time it was 5:30pm, the sun was rising, and my family was already awake and they were just talking, really loudly, like it was 11:00am. I, who barely got any sleep, just wanted to jump off a bridge because I JUST WANTED TO SLEEP A BIT LONGER BUT COULDN'T BECAUSE MY FAMILY WOULD NOT STOP TALKING ABOUT THINGS THAT DID NOT MATTER AT SIX IN THE MORNING.

So by 6:30am, I gave up and got out of bed, and watched Mark and Jack's videos for like, an hour, before I had to go study. After lunch, I was like, "Screw it, I'm so tired I'm going to take a nap."

I have never voluntarily taken a nap in my life. It's probably happened twice, because I'm usually forced to take a nap when I was younger and most of the times I just lied still and watched the clock go by because I didn't want to sleep.

It's probably why I'm short as hell.

Anyway, I have no idea why I actually typed this up, I'm just so pissed that a person cannot sleep whenever they want to, like what happened today.