Wednesday
I am a high stress person. Not 'high stress' as in, I react highly to stress (although
I do), but 'high stress' as in I am always stressed. It doesn't matter when the
deadline is or what the project is or who the person is or what they said
or why they want to meet or if I've known them nine years or none. It
matters that I won't meet the deadline, I won't meet the deadline,
I won't meet the deadline, and it matters that I don't have an
idea for the project, I have no ideas, I have no ideas, I have no
ideas, and it matters what I said and it matters that they
laughed when I turned around, they laughed when I turned
around, they laughed when I turned around, why would
they laugh? It matters that I know she's going to ask
why I'm failing, why am I failing, why am I failing?
It matters that no, I can't talk to you, you know
me too well. I can't talk to you, I can't talk to you,
I can't talk to you. It matters that I can't talk at
all, I can't talk, I can't talk, and it matters that
I want to talk, let me speak, let me speak,
let me speak. It matters that my tears
are stronger than my words
and I cannot speak without
crying myself numb.
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Post Meridiem
PoetryI'd do anything to save myself. Hell, I'd even change the world.