Dreaming of Rebelling (Destiel Highschool AU)

Coffee and Chill?

Deans POV

Small slits that form red words

I close my journal and look down at my legs. Still irritated. Waking up to a sunny sky but a grey mind. All I wanted was to drift away into the mist of the stardust, but I'm grounded and surrounded by people full of hate. I want to hold hands with the blue eyed boy. I want him, I love him.

I love you just slipped the tongue  when I talk to Cas. It was natural. Just like if you were to find the perfect band or tv show and know that you love it. Love is a strong word, but so is wisdom. The only wisdom I had was the wisdom of Acid Rock bands and fixing a '67 Chevy Impala. But he knew so much. He is beautiful when he speaks. He is beautiful when he's silenced. He is beautiful anytime. And that's what I need. Love.

All these deep sleepy thoughts clouding my mind when I realize there is a real world that I have to be apart of and it sucks ass. Fuck everything. Let me me read the moon like Braille without someone stopping me. Let the mountains paint my paradise without people telling me I'm going somewhere else for who I am. I want to explode with the energy of other people's negativity.

Buzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
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Buzzzzzz-

"Hello?" I answered sleepily.

"Hey Dean. I was wondering if you wanted to ditch again, but I take you somewhere?" Cas asked a little bit too excited. He was so adorable how he got excited about things.

"I would love that." I smiled even though I knew he couldn't see me. He and Sammy are the only people that new how to make me genuinely smile.

"Alright. meet me at my house at in 1 hour. I'm sending you my location. It's really close to the lake we went to on Friday, it's a surprise where we are going, so no questions asked. Got it?"

"Got it. See you then."

"Love you"

"I love you more."

Then I heard the click of the phone. What was I supposed to wear? Was it a date? Am I going to have to talk to people? What the hell am I supposed to do?!

I had no idea where we were going to how was I supposed to dress? I'm just going to take a shower and go from there.

Don't get me wrong. I love the fuck out of Cas, I just can't see him. But I had no excuses. I'm not feeling it. I'm still feeling sick after cutting last night and I'm deeper in the hole than I've ever been. I'm at the lowest low, and I can't control myself. I just don't want to disappoint Cas or raise suspicion. I can't have him sucked into this shittyness. I don't want him to leave me for this. I hoped out of the shower realizing it was getting late.

I checked the time. 7:34. I need to get dressed. I have to pick up Cas in 26 minutes.

"DEAN GABRIEL IS HERE ILL SEE YOURE STANK ASS LATER!" Sammy called from downstairs.

"ALRIGHT BITCH SEE YOU LATER. IM DITCHING SO ITLL BE AFTER SCHOOL!" I yelled back.

"JERK." And I heard the door close.

I threw on an oversized blue shirt and a black hoodie with some skinny jeans and converse and outie the door.

To: Cas❤️
Hey hawt stuff you wanna send me yo location

From: me

I just waited in my baby and turned on some music.

To: me
Actually I was wondering if we could meet at a cafe? It would be more fun if we did that then I took you back to my place?