Chapter 9

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Connor woke up late the next morning to the smell of pancakes.
For a second he was confused as to where he was but then troye appeared in his line of vision and everything from the previous night came rushing back.
Troye smiled but Connor shrank back into the bed, embarrassed at his behaviour.
"Hey, Con it's okay" said troye softly, pulling back the duvet. Thankfully for Connor he was still wearing a long sleeved jumper and sweat pants that concealed his scarred body.
He sat up slowly, adjusting to the light that streamed in through the double doors that opened onto a balcony.
He looked around the room, at the chair where Troye had slept judging by the blankets and pillows spread across it.
Then he saw the pancakes on the cabinet next to the chair. He was starving. Heck, his stomach hadn't  stopped moaning at him for days but he was determined to keep up his fast. Pancakes could bring it all tumbling down. Pancakes would make him fat.
Troye smiled at him and passed him the plate but all Connor could do was stare at the plate so full of calories.
"Eat it Con, we didn't have dinner last night and you've lost weight" Troye told Connor.
Connor picked up the fork and took off a corner of the Nutella covered pancake, swirling it around the plate. He stared at it for a long time, the whole time Troye watching from the chair where he had wrapped himself in a blanket.
Connor eventually dropped the fork and shook his head. "I'm honestly not hungry Tro" Connor said decisively.
"Con you've got to eat," Troye pleaded but Connors head was shaking.
"Don't you understand?" Connor asked "don't you realise I'll get fat" he whispered sadly and lifting his head he saw Troyes sympathetic eyes and it became too much again. He began crying.
He couldn't stay here, crying again in front of Troye.
"I'm sorry Tro, honestly you don't need to worry about me" Connor whispered making his way to the door. He smiled at Troye sadly before leaving into the silent corridor.

A/N Today was kinda shitty. My anxiety was really bad and I felt really self concious.
Luckily my favourite teacher sorta noticed how horrible I felt and she made me feel so much better.
It's really great knowing some people know how to make you feel.
Also I got home to a Troye video and that made me feel 100x better.
I've got to go back to school for two hours to show people round but now my anxiety has calmed down I don't feel so nervous about it

-Charl

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