Kurt POV
When I invited Blaine it was me trying to maybe forgive him or something.
All I know is I'm not over him.
Everything is just...
I don't know how to say it but I still melt at his smile. His curls drive me insane. And just his dorky little features.
But he hurt me.
He's the reason my life is slowly turning into a nightmare.
It's honestly hard to talk to anyone around here. I don't know how to actually get over someone. Blaine was my first everything. Forgetting him is hard. And Blaine...
Well we all have secrets.
I'm just not ready for mine to become a reality yet.
After maybe a couple weeks of being in this hospital prison they finally let me go. My dad brought me cloths and everything and we were in the car as I looked out the window. I was still sore form it all and could feel the scar.
The car was quite until I decided to speak up. "Hey Dad?"
"Yeah." He said eyes glued to the road.
"How were you able to get over Mom?" I asked looking at him.
His eyes were still fixed to the road it took him a second to think about it. "Truth is I don't think I really ever did." He said giving off a chuckle. "No it was hard Kurt. But a apart of me never got over her because you were her. You looked like her sound like her. Hell you even act like her. It's hard to get over someone you still love. I think you have to force yourself out of loving them before you can really forget. But if it's true love it always manages to show up again and again till you face facts." He said.
I nodded looking out the window.
"Can I ask why?" My Dad said asking me.
I used to be really close with my Dad. Ever since I was introduced to the world of secrets it's been different.
"Blaine... I want to get over him so bad. But.." I chuckled at myself out of sarcasm "it's hard to forget someone your still in love with." I said.
My dad took a deep breath then spoke again.
"You and Blaine... I can't help you there. That's your own story there nothing I can help you with. That's a battle you have to fight alone I'm afraid of." My dad said.
I nodded looking at him.
"Life sucks." I said looking at the road.
We both broke out into laughter and continued to drive all the way home.
How I wish I could tell my dad this crazy mess I'm in. I wonder if Mr.Shue knows anything about getting over an ex...
Blaine POV
I'm drunk dying on the floor of I don't know what room.
Does Kurt even still love me?
Does he even care about me?
Should I end it all?
Is his secret really worth keeping?
Should I break off my Devils deal?
I still love Kurt.
I would still scream it on rooftops if I could.
But he doesn't love me back.
So what's the point.
What's the point in anything.
Without Kurt I'm pointless. I mean he hates me and this all started because of Sebastian and a secret. I secret I still keep. But I mean if he doesn't care about me doesn't that mean I should stop the black mail and let it go so Sebastian can spread it across school and Lima.
It would be easier wouldn't it.
It would also be easy to end it..
The deal.
The pain.
All of it.
There are so many ways too do it too.
Which one will let me go out with a bang?
No don't think like that.
But maybe we should start thinking like that.
No your crazy it's stupid just fake a smile and carry on.
Your already going insane. Better count the days till you end up in a home. Or hanging off somewhere...
A/N
Heyyyy sorry for the crappy chapter. I'm on this writers block thing so sorry. More to come soon!
~Mia 🌊
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