Loving my Alpha mate who rejected me (MAJOR EDITING IN PROCESS)

Chaper 7

A/N:

This is a chapter contains a fragment of JADLYN'S PAST so take note its her PAST NOT present!!!!!! haha now take a slight glimpse of what jadlyn's life used to be! >.<

[WARNING! SCENES MAY BE DISTURBING AND DEPRESSING SO IF YOU CANNOT TAKE IT DO NOT READ IT]

so her comes jadlyn past...enjoy!

Jadlyn POV

Derek walks in, laughing heartily with another girl. His hand gropping onto her ass while the girl just ignored it. I knew from my girl instincts she is only after sex or a sum of money. Soon she will leave after she gets what she want. But Derek does not care, he just want to have sex with the pretty girls all day.

I look upon myself. Fat and ugly. I am ugly. These are the reasons why my mate looked at me in disgust. The sight of me disgust him. What kind of mate am i if i disgusted him.

I just look away as i felt the similar heartache whenever i see him with another girl. It happens all the time but i can never get use to it. It felt as though hot searing knives pierced through my chest ready to rip me apart. Each time i see him my heart will skip a beat and then it would shred into pieces as the familiar heartaches come back. 

I love him, so much to the point It hurts. But he just does not want me. He just had to reject  me. But i have to hang on. They say when one loses theit mate, they will suffer immense pain, physically and emotionally. I don't want to see my mate in that state. He can hate me all he wants but he will change, he will then see the good side in me, repent on what he has done to me and love me. 

I look at the girls he hugged, kissed and had sex with. They all had things in common, a slim body with flawless skin. Me, i have a body with layers of fat around me and skin that was oily and pimples were starting to form on my forehead and chin.

From that day i went exercising, took diet pills and did as many things as i can to slim down. Bought many facial products to keep my face smooth and flawless but nothing worked.. [A/N: Take note, werewolves do not have any effects to human medicine, apparently this character is so crazy till she forgot .-.]

I took the penknife blade out and slashed myself, due to my werewolf powers, it soon closed up. I slashed and slashed my wrist, my wounds kept closing up. I dropped the blade that was stained in my crimsom red blood. Sobs rolled down my cheeks as i cried uncontrollably. I clenched my hand and placed it on my chest and cried. 

It hurts.

So much.

I wish i could die.

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When i took the first step into the pack house, Derek grabbed me by my neck and strangled me till i was choking to death. He then let go and kicked me, punched me and whacked me so hard on my back i swear i felt my bone broke. I scream out in agony and tears were already flowing like rivers down my flushed cheeks. What did i do to deserve this? 

A punch came in contact with my face and before i could react, another one came flying into my stomach and chest. My left eye was starting to swell as everything became a blur. I was slipping in and out of consciousness as i felt multiple blows in my stomach. I then curled myself and felt him kicking my shin. Through my blurry vision, he took a metal rod and whacked me so hard in the shin it broke and my bone came out. I then screamed out as i felt my shin throb in pain and blood flowed out endlessly.

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BACK TO THE PRESENT!!!!!

Jadlyn POV