Runnin (mgk fan fic)

Sorry

Ana-
I've been avoiding him since that night, though his many calls shows he is persistent. Even Carla has called me and left me numerous voice mails on how I was being rude to him and that I should give him a chance. Yet I would rather hide in my shadows and be consumed by the peace of silence in these four walls. Im staying with my parents for a few more days until I return to Cleveland, I decided to resume my life there. At least that way I know I won't be able to hurt my family by being close to them. And besides I am still trying to figure out what to do with my life.

I've stayed in my old room the whole day, my parents can't scold me for sleeping in anymore since I am no longer a consumer of this household. Yet my mother comes in to check on me. I really do hate being in my depression phase again, especially since this is the time I should be reconnecting with my family.

"Hey get up." My dad comes in my room and shakes me from my bed. " We need to talk"

" I don't really feel like talking right now dad, please leave me alone." I bring the covers over my head.

"You know you're not too old to get an ass whooping, which is what I should of given you a long time ago." He snatches the covers off. He sits next to me and I sit up with my back on the wall.

" I'm worried about you, you don't know how painful it is to see you like this. You're in danger." He says, he doesn't look at me, which I understand because I do the same thing when I talk about something that is sure to bring tears eyes.

"I'm fine dad, I know how to protect myself now no one is getting near me." I say.

"That's what I'm talking about. Sweetheart you shut the whole world out, you shut us out. How is that fine? I understand you're scared. I should have been there for you, I should have kept you home instead of letting you run off I am so sorry."

"NO!" I yell, " do not blame yourself for what I did I made my mistakes, I paid the price."

"You paid more than you should have. Honey you can't keep living like this, look at you. You're barely eating, you sleep all day now, you barley look like yourself. This is no way to live. Fear is no way to live." He looks at me then.

" I'm not afraid! Whoever tries me I'm fucking ready to hit. This time I'll be sure you all won't be affected I promise." My voice breaks.

"You're afraid of yourself Ana. Your afraid to get close to people. Honey you need to move on. I know I shouldn't mention it, but Cesar wouldn't want you to act like this either." He grabs my hand, I pull mine back.

"Why did you have to say his name!" I get off from the bed.

"Because its the truth. Look at you, you're giving in to depression, you're shacked up here in this room like if it was a mad house. This is not living. If you keep this up then Cesar's death would be in vain."

I lose it then, I great sob escapes my throat and I drop to the ground. My father comes and puts his hand on my shoulder lightly as if I could crumble if he would add more pressure.

" He died so you could have a chance at life. He knew you were a better person than what you had set out to be. He wanted you to be happy, he wanted to give you a chance at a new life. Do not let his death be in vain, honey." He kneels down and hugs me. " We are here, to love you and support you through anything, you just need to reach out to us baby girl. Don't be afraid anymore." I hug him tighter and we sit there for awhile just rocking on the floor. As much as it hurts to admit, he's right. All this time I've been distancing myself from everyone, I've been living a lie, in fear. I turn my head to face him.

"You're still my superhero dad." I smile and I lean my head on his.

"And I'll always will be honey," he begins to get up and I help him. He brushes the dust off his pants. " I also came in here to tell you that a guy has been calling and calling for you on our phone. Richard I think? Do me a favor and call him back. I know he is worried too but damn, does he not have his own life to deal with? "