What it use to be(editing)

Chapter 3

I put down my phone and continue drawing until some flowers come in. "Deliver for Regina Mills." A man calls. His mail man name tag says 'Daniel' "over here!" Mom calls. He grabs a clipboard which she signs and then she takes the roses. "Awe Robin you didn't have to." Mom says. I go back to drawing until dad says "Honey the flowers I bought are at home." I stop my pencil dead in its track. I began to worry and kind of panic. Mom then looks them closer and finds something. She pulls put a black rose. Yeah a black rose. I mean where do you even get them?!?

"There's a note." May points out hugging mom closer. I just about don't breathe when mom takes the card. She reads out loud "I'm coming." Then at the speed of light mom gave everything to dad. "Mommy, is someone coming to hurt you?" May say through the tears, Mom only hugs her tighter rocking her back and forth. She whispers sweet things in Italian to her but avoids the question. "Mom it was him." I say. I put the piece and piece together. "Who babes?" "The flowers and the chocolate.... I don't think they were from dad." Mom then stops. The tense air floating around, everyone still like frozen people in time.

I feel tears trying to escape at the thought that my mother is trying to be murdered. My dad the first one to move gets up and takes the flower to our room. Grandma and grandpa sit down. Emma gets a hug from her husband, While Henry is trying to distract his little sister and Candy is still kind of in shock. The next twenty minutes were exactly the same as the last.

The next day I decide to stay home with Mom and May. We are down stairs eating breakfast at our glass dining table with white and red chairs all around. Moms been a little quiet lately but and always has on a mask of joy. May kind of notices but she shrug it off, Dad and I see right through her, all the fear inside of her. "Mommy I got an upgrade in ballet class!" May exclaims, "Oh course you did my bella ragazza" (beautiful girl) I laugh and so does may. "Hey Mom, can I get another comforter so I can paint on it again." "Ok babes when do you want it?" I playfully think. "Umm today so can I go? I will be back soon but it's okay if you..." She cuts me off "I don't mind Reagan I trust you." I smile go give her a hug then run up our white carpet stairs.

I get in my room and decide to wear shorts with a Tie dye T-shirt I made. I grabbed my nude clutch guess wallet slipped on some all black converse. Put my hair in a ponytail with a little mascara, my keys and I was out my room. I blew kisses and was out the door. Once I was down the road from my house I got a text from 'Starbucks Hayes☕️' that read 'Hey artist, is your mom out the hospital yet?' He is so sensitive it's so cute!  I stop at a red light and reply 'yeah she's good 😊 thanks for asking' the light turns green and I turn into Michael's.

Once I get out the car and walk into Michaels Asher calls me. "Hey Reagan," "Hey Asher" "so what are you doing Locksley." I grin at the use of my last name. Ugh he can be so cute I just wanna kiss him! "Umm well I'm at Michaels getting some stuff for my art. How about you?" "Nothing much... I'm heading over to Bianca Todd's house to help her with some things." I smile remembering Bianca. I laugh slightly at how Bianca isn't her real name. Her real name being summer but her middle is Bianca it's kind of her name. "Oh yeah... Does she still love chocolate more than life?" "Yeah wait Reagan she doesn't tell anyone that how do you know that?" "Well Asher from preschool to high school she was my best friend and once we came to freshman year she kind of dumped me. My mom and her mom Ursula use to hang out all the time with us."

"Oh" was all he could get out. I ended the phone call and proceeded to get what I needed. Once I did I went to the cash register. "Hey Reagan," The employee Amy says. "Hey." I wave. She checks me out and head home. 

When I get home at 12am Mays practicing ballet in the living room. I put my comforter on the black sofa. I ask where mom is and she tells me mom is in her study so I walk past by my twirling little sister and walk upstairs. I head towards Mom's room and turn right. The door leads to my Mothers study. I knock and she gives permission to enter. "Hey mom," I say as I go to hug her. She smiles and kisses my forehead. I see she's paying bills for her practice. "Mom, it's okay to be afraid..." She sighs, "Babes I'm not" then I sigh "yeah mom you are. I'm not just a stranger or May I'm your oldest daughter and I can see right through you. Why do you keep your feelings inside?" I say about to burst into tears. She notices and stops typing. She pulls me into her embrace. I start crying.

"Oh baby va bene" (it's okay) she says. "no mamma non la sua ho quasi perso te" (no mom it's not... I almost lost you) "dolce cuore I'm right here" (sweetheart) Mom keeps talking in Italian knowing that when she talks in our original language calms me down. I keep hugging her tight as she does what she does best.... Fill me with her love.

Hello beauties,
Anyway this is the first authors note of this story so hello good people. There wont be a lot  of these so don't worry. All I want to say is thank you for reading👏.
💋💋Autumn💋💋