What it use to be(editing)

Chapter 4

It's been a week since mom came out the hospital and she's good. We are all really good. Ava decided she wants to play the Cello after music day yesterday. My parents gave in and her lessons start today. I'm walking with Candy and Henry when I hear a faint Guitar by the music room. I walk towards it to open the door quietly. I peek in and see Asher playing. I stand there in shock and right then I knew he was different and I had to help him realize that. As I was about to back out the door Asher speaks up "Reagan come on in." I smile and nod. "Hey, you're great." He frowns, "Reagan you can't tell anyone about this." "But Asher you're amazing." I protest.

"Reagan please, not even my mom knows so just don't okay?" "Okay..." "Now what's that?" He points toward my sketch book in my hand. "Oh um my sketch book," "Can I see it?" I nod and hand it to him. He starts at page one and sits on a stool. I walk over and stand next to him. My first page is a sketch of my mom. "That's your mom?" "Yeah, Regina Locksley," "Does she own the Mills-Locksley OB/GYN practice?" "Yeah that's her." "Oh my aunt Caitlyn Humbert goes there." I laugh. "Yes I know her." We both laugh. Then he flips through the rest of my book.

"Reagan you're going to be somebody someday. You're super talented and so is your sister from what Bianca and Daniella Hicks tell me." "Yeah my sister is and has the biggest heart. Wait you guys talk about me?" Wow Daniella Hicks talks about me. Weird since her mom Lilith and Emma don't get along anymore. He nods and hands me back my book. "Reagan who's your favorite artist that's still alive?" "Umm I really love Maid Marian's work. The way she chooses to put thing together is amazing." He smiles and nods. "Okay Reagan." He hugs me and leaves.

I smile and make my way to my free period destination. I sit on a bench near the edge of the east wing. Across from me is a pond, Small but cute. A few ducks swimming around and the lily pads riding the waves that the wind makes. I start to sketch it. I find myself thinking about Asher. I try to stop but I can't.

Later that day when I get home with May I help her get started on her homework. "Ok what's today's homework?" I question May. She doesn't say anything. "May?" She looks at me with tears in her eyes. "What's wrong può?"(May) she sniffles and finally says "tutte le altre mamme ragazze vengono a prenderli , ma non la nostra." (all the other girls moms come to pick them up but not ours) "et subsannavit te hodie" (and they made fun of me today) What! "Ut nolite ergo audire eos. Mom diligit venturum potuit tollere et quotidiana." (May don't listen to them! Mom loves us and if she could she would come pick you up every day.) She nods and hugs me. I rock her back and forth in my chair.

"May are you feeling okay?" She shakes her head. "Okay let's get you a bath, some food and to bed." I whisper. "No I want Mommy and Daddy here." She protests. "Okay they will be home in about an Hour." I say. Then I follow through with my promise. I get her a bath, food and then to bed. I call mom and dad and tell them. Mom told me to check her temperature and its one hundred and three degrees. Mom races home and so does dad. I'm sitting at the table mad. I take care of their kid and she's right. I almost raise May. Mom and Dad open the door. "How is she?" They say in sync. "Sleeping," I say bluntly. Then tears start to fall. "Mel ?" (Honey) dad says. I get up and run upstairs. Mom follows me while I guess dad went to check on May.

I slam my door and not even twenty seconds later I hear mom knocking. "Reagan... Reagan please open the door." She pleads. Being the good girl I am I'm done. "I'm sorry." I say. "No baby, don't be... Just tell me what's wrong." I hesitate but then give in "at Mays dance class some girls are making front of her because I pick her up every day and not you." I could see the guilt spread across her face. "But mom it's not your fault. Your helping Moms bring their kids into the world. You're helping people." "But I'm neglecting my children Reagan. I'm neglecting you."

I only shake my head and hug my mom. Then I heard dad call us. We walk into Mays room to see her crying and my dad holding her. "What happened?" Mom asks as we walk over to her. "Love, someone Bloody hell came in here." "What no dad I was downstairs." I protest. He points towards the window which was opened and handed mom a note. She instantly becomes angry and hands it to me it reads 'Which Locksley will be next... Oh wait Dear May.'

I run over to May. "I'm so sorry I wasn't there... May I'm sorry" I say. She doesn't respond and only snuggles into dads embrace. Mom could see I'm trying to hold it together and came over to hug me again. "Non è colpa tua."(It's not your fault) then May speaks "Daddy can Reagan and Me sleep with you tonight?" He nods and starts rocking her back and forth. He picks her up and takes her in their room. I go change into my pajamas and find a note on my bed and an opened window. I pick up the note it says 'it's all your fault and she will only get worse because I control all of you!' I become angry quickly having my mother temper and throw the note away. I change into my Red PJs, take off my makeup and go crawl into bed with my Family.