Morning
I wake up and Dean is asleep on my shoulder. Do I really move around that much in my sleep? I look over at the clock on his wall. It's 10:45. Shit, we've missed school. I don't think I've ever missed a day of school. But that's only because my house is twice as worse.
I remove myself from his bed even though I want to stay forever and fuck and cuddle and watch Disney movies. But I can't let my feelings get to me because that only ends up in shattered pieces of my heart too small to pick up and put back together.
I look at Dean's beautiful sleeping face one more time. I get my stuff and leave just like that. No hesitation or anything. Wow, I really am Satan's sibling.
It's weird. Usually, after a one night stand, I feel numb, that's why I do them, but this time I don't feel numb. I feel guilty and empty. That's not happened before. Why do I feel like this? Dean is defiantly head fucking me. Why am I letting him head fuck me?
I walk into the house and I see Gabriel.
"Morning Cas. The terrible two have left so we have a whole three weeks to ourselves and the doctor said you don't have to wear your velcro bandage thingy anymore. He overestimated how long it would take to heal or something."
"Ok. I'm gonna go to my room."
"You ok?" He says looking away from the TV for once.
"Yeah, just a little light headed." I say with a fake smile.
I walk upstairs and I see Dean's jacket on my floor and I instantly burst into tears. I try to stop but it doesn't work. I run to the bathroom and I look in the mirror. Even though I am crying I look happier. I hate this. What is he doing to me? I take off my clothes and the velcro bandage and cry. This is the only place I can cry. It hurts. That's not why I fuck though. I fuck so I can feel numb, so I don't have to feel the pain for a while. Why hasn't it worked? I hate this. It's even worse than my first time and that's fucking saying something. The pain hasn't gone away. I can feel it getting worse. I hate this.
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