"I can't. I'm sorry."
Ross looks like his dog just died. I blabber out some words.
"It's just that Bonnie really likes you and has always liked you and I can't do that to her and she's so much more experienced than me I've never even kissed someone."
Ross looks taken back and says "She has a boyfriend. Why would she like me?"
"I don't know."
"But I don't like her. I like you Jules."
"I'm sorry" I say and sprint up the stairs.
I lock myself in the bathroom and hope a nice hot shower will soothe me. My biggest dream and I'm the one to shatter it.
A new Taylor Swift song comes to mind. It fits my mood perfectly so I begin to sing.
Ross's POV
I didn't expect Julia to turn me down. I'm so upset. I really like her. I walk by the bathroom and sort of recognize the song that I hear. I listen and realize that it's Julia singing.
I bet this time of night you're still up.
I bet you're tired from a long hard week.
I bet you're sitting in your chair by the window looking out at the city.
And I bet sometimes you wonder about me.
And I just wanna tell you
It takes everything in me not to call you.
And I wish I could run to you.
And I hope you know that every time I don't
I almost do,
I almost do.
I bet you think I either moved on or hate you
'Cause each time you reach out there's no reply.
I bet it never ever occurred to you that I can't say "Hello" to you
And risk another goodbye.
And I just wanna tell you
It takes everything in me not to call you.
And I wish I could run to you.
And I hope you know that every time I don't
I almost do,
I almost do.
Oh, we made quite a mess, babe.
It's probably better off this way.
And I confess, babe,
In my dreams you're touching my face
And asking me if I wanna try again with you.
And I almost do.
And I just wanna tell you
It takes everything in me not to call you.
And I wish I could run to you.
And I hope you know that every time I don't
I almost do,
I almost do.
I bet this time of night you're still up.
I bet you're tired from a long hard week.
I bet you're sitting in your chair by the window looking out at the city.
And I hope sometimes you wonder about me.
When she finishes, I'm amazed. She's an incredible singer. It also sounds like she has feeling for me.
I have to get this sorted out with Bonnie. I'll ask her tonight when I sleep in her room with her and Julia. I have to act like everything is fine and normal.
