Is This Incest?

Chapter 2~ Forgiving and Feeling Stupid

I looked out into the ocean. It was quiet and peaceful. I need an Escape from the word and it's annoyance. Felice decided she wanted to come to the beach and the boys forced me along. I still haven't talked to Trey about last night. Or what it ment for us.

I was in a totally different part of the beach then everyone else. Me and Trey 'Discovered it' when we were younger. I was about 6 so he was 8. 10 years ago I believed Trey was my brother. Life wasn't hard. I never fell in love with him. I didn't sleep with him. Nothing, Life was easier.

I looked over to the entrance and saw Trey making his way in. I stood up at the sight of him.

"I need to talk to you." He said looking down at his feet. He took my virginity and he can't even look up at me anymore

"About." I asked already knowing the answer.

"About last night." He said looking me right into my eyes with his hazel one. That action sent shivers down my back.

"I know." I said but he cut me off.

"I'm sorry, I was drunk and wasn't in my right mind." This wasn't going where I wanted it to. He's apologizing which means it won't be happening again. And that over a good sex and sleep he realizes that he doesn't love me or even like me for that matter.

"Why are you apologizing," I asked worried but I tried to sound as flirty as possible.

"I feel like I took advantage of you." He said and I looked up at him and shook my head.

"You didn't. I wanted it as much as you." I said and I walked closer and closer to him. He loooked down at me and I looked up as he towered over me.

"Trey my turn. " I looked behind him to see Felice standing in her silver bakini. She had a slight baby bump and her legs were getting a little bigger.

"Okay I'll talk to you later." He said pulling me in into a bear hug. Not a lovey-dovey hug but a brother/sister hug, the one I'm o-so familiar with.

"I'm sawry" Lice said, with a baby voice, holding her arms out running towards me.

"I guess I'm okay." I said hugging her back, "I just wanted you to tell me and I guess I was-"

"Dissapointed." She said looking down, "I've heard that so much" She said sarcastically raising an eyebrow. She then looked up from the ground and at me.

"I'm not dissapointed just surprised." I said and she smirked sarcasically, "Does the father know?" I asked and she frowned.

"Yeah I don't think he cares though. I talked to Ryan while you were asleep." It took me a minute to realize that Ryan was who she was talking about

"Wait, Ryan's the father. When" I asked and she looked down at the ground.

"It was a party. It was stupid and I felt ashamed. I just let it happen. I wanted him to like me and I wanted to get rid of it." She said fast and I looked at her in shock. I've nearly known Ryan my entire life, that he was like a brother too.

I held out my hands for another hug and she returned it, "How far are you" I asked and she looked down at her stomach

"A couple months." She said and I looked in excitement.

"I call God-Mother." I said and she smiled

"Well, Duhh." She said and We walked out the sectioned area and went back to the rest of the world. Our eyes caught Ryan and Trey playing in the water with a girl. No not just any girl Sylvia. She looked like she was having the best time. I just hate to see her breathe.

"Lice" I said and she looked out in the distance. I tapped her and she looked at me, "I think Trey friendzoned me." I said and she looked at me with pity

"Well Ryan Babymomma-zoned me" She said with a slight smile but I could tell she was hurt.

We walked over to the towel that was laid down and sat looking out at the semi-crowded beach. There were alot of people running around that it was getting annoying. But before we could just leave and got to another area, Trey and Ryan made their way over to us with Sylvia following close behind. She had on a skimpy pink bakini and I rolled my eyes.

Trey came and sat next to me hugging me. I looked up at Sylvia who was rolling her eyes.

"No need for jealousy you know you my girl." He said slightly throwing me to hug Sylvia. My heart dropped to my feet. Ryan came and sat inbetween me and Lice. He hugged her and began talking to her.

How could he throw me for her. He just ditched me. Before I could let a tear fall I jumped up and ran. I felt like any idiot. After I let him take my virginity. I felt so used from someone I valued so much.

I sat in the car to only see everyone following me. They all crowded in the car, Trey and Sylvia in the front and Lice and Ryan in the back. I sat by the door and looked out the window the whole ride to Sylvia's house.

She kissed Trey good bye then she got out the car making sure she looked at me. I rolled my eyes as Trey pulled out the driveway.

"What's wrong." Trey asked looking at me.

"Fuck you." I said and he looked in shock.

"What did I do."

"Fuck you Trey." I said as he pulled into the drive way. I jumped out the car before he could stop the car and get out.

"Why, Martini, Why." He said getting out the car.

I turned around and fought the tears as much as I could, "You used me." I said and he looked like he felt bad, "You had sex with me and now it's nothing." I let the tears roll, "You push me away like I'm nothing to hug that bitch." He looked at me like he didn't know what to say. I looked at him with the tears running from my eyes.

"Martini," He said trying to hug me but I only backed up, "It was an accident." I looked over to Lice and Ryan, they only looked down, "I was drunk and that shouldn't have happened. I just don't like you like that." He said and I bite my lip trying not to cry again.

"No you don't want me because Sylvia has you." I said turning around storming into the house and ran to my room. I slammed and locked my door. I jumped on my bed and cried. I felt like someone snatched my heart out of my body and stompped it. I could feel them kick it and cut off peices then sew it back in my chest.

"Mar'" Lice spoke at the door. I couldn't even build up the courage to open the door and let her in. I felt humilated and ashamed. I laid there and bailed my eyes out. I couldn't get up at all. I wanted to disappear and never come back again. I finally got up and opened the door to let Lice in.

She hugged me for a good minute and I didn't want to let go but I did, "I feel so humilated." I said and she shook her head

"I know, babe" She said hugging me again

"I trusted him." I said, "I feel so stupid. I let him just take my virginity and use me. I just feel so stupid. I thought he cared but he's just like everyother boy." I said and she wouldn't let me go

"I know. But it's okay you still have me" I smiled because I know I did.

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Hello loves, Kala here. Also, I just wanted to thank those who took time out of their reading much better books to read mines. Thanks, your all very amazing.