It's not a dream/h.s

eleven

"Yes, hearts can break. Sometimes I think it would be better if we died when they did, but we don't."

- Stephen King
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I wanted to run and run until I reached the end of this planet. I missed the cold soft grass and how it felt against my bare feet. The smell of the ocean, the flowers, but most of all I missed my best friend. It was stupid of me to not meet him when he truly was sorry for what he did.

"I want to go outside." I spoke ending the deathly silence.

Felix looked up at me and I couldn't read his face. It took a while for him to respond..I guess he didn't think too much of it before.

"Umm okay but you should know you're probably going to see Harry and Cleo." He finally replied.

Cleo. Why am I just now finding out her name.

"I don't care I just need to go outside."

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Once Felix finished scribbling down a few more things on a paper he stood up and put his black jacket on.

I made my way to the door and quickly opened it. Felix was right behind me and I looked back at him, he nodded.

I rushed down the stairs and outside. The light, cool air danced across my skin and I could finally breathe. It felt so nice kind of like when you've been under your blankets for a while and finally uncover your upper body.

I smiled as a butterfly landed on my shoulder. I forgot how beautiful it was here, and how calming the sound of the breeze flowing through the grass was.

There looked like there was gathering in the garden in front of castle. Many people had blankets and food laid out. Children were playing tag while the older men and women were having conversations full of laughter.

Felix and I began walking over to join the event. I found an empty spot to sit and my smile faded when I saw Harry.

I knew I'd see him, but I still wasn't ready.

He had a small grin on his face as he picked some bright yellow flowers from the ground. I watched as he hid them behind his back and approached a girl. She was beautiful. He gave her the flowers and she smiled wide taking them and laughing.

I couldn't look any longer. My gaze shifted to the ground and I started playing with my dress.

"I knew it wasn't a good idea to let you come out here." Felix spoke frowning.

His frown slowly turned into a smirk and I furrowed my eyebrows.

"What?" I ask.

"Why not practice some magic?" He says turning his gaze to the flawless girl.

It took me a while to understand what he was suggesting and I gasped.

"I can't do something to her! What has she ever done to me? That's terrible and mean." I harshly whispered.

"Well she did take your best friend away from you.. Come on Leila. Just a little hair tug or a push."

I shook my head and looked back at the girl. She pulled Harry away from the crowd and right as she was about to go in for a kiss she began choking.

My hands turned into fist as I imagined them around her neck.

She was on the floor grabbing her neck and Harry didn't know what to do as he yelled for help. By now everyone was running towards them.

"Leila okay that's enough!" Felix said shaking my shoulders.

I couldn't stop. I couldn't move. My fist kept getting tighter and tighter and suddenly I heard someone yell "She's going to die!"