It's not a dream/h.s

nine

"Was it always to be like this? She wondered. A moment of joy followed by a new sorrow."

- Soheir Khashoggi

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Leila's P.O.V

"Leila? Why did you just leave Felix's room?" Harry asks with a straight face.

Think. Think. Think. Think.

"I was giving him something from Alexander." I say calmly.

Harry nods and I make my way to the staircase.

"I wanted to talk to you. We can talk for a while before you have to sleep." Harry says putting his hand on my back as we walk to my room and I'm quick to shrug it off.

He doesn't question my action. Thank god.

He opens the door and I walk in turning the light on while he closes the door and takes a sit on my bed.

It was a really uncomfortable silence as I stood there grabbing my arm waiting for him to say something.

"Leila you can sit, it's your room."

"No it's okay I want to stand. What did you want to talk about?" I say leaning against my tall dresser.

He clasped his hands together and looked at his lap.

"I know you're mad at me because we haven't hung out for a while, but Alexander and Aura need me and I can't let them down."

"They need you for what?" I ask even though I know the answer.

"Um just stuff.." He says.

I stay quiet not knowing what to say. I don't want to call him out for not telling me, and I don't want to say anything wrong.

He gets off the bed and walks to me, but not too close.

"I really miss you and I'm sorry that I'm not being honest with you, but I'm not suppose to tell. Please do-"

"I want to sleep now." I interrupt him not wanting to hear more. I turn the light off, slip off my shoes and get in bed.

"Lelia please listen."

"I said I want to leave now."

My light turned on again and I sat up furious.

"You aren't sleeping until you listen to me!"
Harry yells and I flinch.

"If I could tell you I would. You don't understand, I swore I wouldn't tell anyone and if Alex finds out I won't be able to be king anym-"

"Shit!" He shouts kicking my shoes that were on the floor. He looked like wreck and I didn't know what to do.

"Harry calm down! I already knew."

He looked up confused. "What? How'd you know? Who told you?"

"It doesn't matter. Can you stop worrying about yourself for 5 minutes and understand it doesn't matter if I know because I'm not going to tell anyone about it. You should know I can keep a secret." I say quickly so he can relax.

He started pacing back and forth, tugging at his hair.

"Lay down." He says and puts both of his hands on both sides of my face.

"Donec iterum conveniant"

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"THE BEST YOU EVER HAD THE BEST YOU EVER HAD IS JUST A MEMORY AND THOSE DREAMS WEREN'T AS DAFT AS THEY SEEM." Eliza sang at the top of her lungs as she drove us to the boardwalk.

Once again it's really complicated living two different lives since you're in two different moods at the same time. Once we found a parking space we made our way to the beach first before going on any rides.

Eliza threw her arm over my shoulder as we walked. "I can't wait till we are 18 so we can buy a place together." She speaks and I nod is agreement.

"How are you and Dylan?" I ask.
Dylan is her boyfriend and they've been together for 3 months already.

"Good. He wants me to meet his parents, but I still feel like it's too early... What about you? When was the last time you spoke to a male specimen." She jokes.

I roll my eyes.

"I'm not talking to a guy. My love life is non existent and it will stay like that for a while." I say and Eliza laughs.

The rest of the day was fun and we rode every single ride, and it was the first time I've enjoyed myself in a while.

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Jojo is my mom I LOVED HER IN AQUAMARINE

-izzy