Mental Activity

The Garden. Chap2 (small graphic)

We walk outside into the courtyard. Its just quiet, just the trees and stuff blowing around. I sit down in the usual circle of grass and dirt I usually sit in, Karen sits on a bench looking at a clipboard with stuff on it. I look around, at the sky, they keep a fence over the court yard so nobody escapes. I roll onto my side curled in a ball. Nothing has happened yet, no eyes. I don't hear many voices but the doctors and the birds. Everything seems to be going well, then I notice James talking to Karen. He's probably sending her off so he can have his "Alone time" with me. I can tell though, every time Karen talks to James she has some look in her eyes, even when she talks about him. She likes him, but he's too focused on me to realise it. "Ill just go over there and watch him." "Are you sure, you don't think you'd need help?" "No it's fine, he likes me anyway." "Okay." I hear footsteps coming, I try to get up but I plopped myself on my side making it so I cant get up. I have my face pressed against the ground with my knees bent and butt in the air, the last position I want to be in. I try lifting myself up, "Already ready for me?" James pinches my ass through my sweat pants. "If I didn't know any better I'd think you are actually starting to like me." He's not gonna do it here is he? He cant, there are more patients walking around. I feel his hand slip under me between my thighs, him holding my crotch. "So, anything your little voices are telling you now?" He starts squeezing, I let out a small gasp, my eyes getting teary. "S-stop." His grip gets tighter. "What I love about you most is that I can do this to you and when im finished you cant grab them in pain rolling and crying about it, you can cry but when don't you cry? I've made a lot of money from bets that if I go in your room you're just gonna be crying. I don't see why you're a guy, you're equivalent to a little girl." He squeezes hard, I'm about to cry, but that's what he wants. I suck it up, letting out a small gasp but nothing else. He lets go and I roll onto my side wincing balling up. "O-ow.." He laughs at me. "Did I hurt the little baby? I figured after years you'd be used to all of it." I cant stand him, I try scooting myself away from him. He grabs my ankle basically picking me up off the ground. I am small "Where are you going?" I squirm around, I just wanna be in a ball and sleep. "L-let me g-go!" I squirm around, he drops me. I start getting on my knees to pick myself up with my face pressed against the ground. James winds him leg back then kicks me directly between the legs into my crotch, I cant move, it hurts too much. I just lie there gasping. I hear The radio thing turn on asking James to check on another patient, something about someone getting out. "You stay there." He runs off leaving me alone, I feel sick. I feel like just falling asleep and never waking up. I lie there for a few minutes, probably around 30-40. It still hurts a bit but I manage to sit myself up against a tree. I start hearing voices again. Nobody is around, its just my mind. "You can do what you want now. What can happen? You're alone and waiting here isn't a good idea." Ill probably get tazed or something if I try. "You wont get hurt. You are just a child and don't want you effected. You can also get James in trouble for leaving you unsupervised. Simply say you were walking around." I want James in trouble, I could just never find a way to get him in trouble. I could probably do this. I stand up carefully leaning against the tree. My balls really hurt. He probably did that to immobilize me. It didn't work much, it hurt though. I start walking for the door. Nobody else it out here. "Is outside time over?" I look around the locks only lock from the outside, you need a key to get back out so I probably wont be able to come back out. I stand up and walk to the door. "How am I going to open this though..." I think of different ways, then I rest the knob on my shoulder pressing my cheek against it twisting it. It takes a few times but then it opens.