Love at First Sight (A Liam Payne Love Story)

Love at First Sight (A Liam Payne Love Story) Part 24

Part 24

Jessa's POV

Emily has been telling me to leave the house and have contact with people and I think she's right. Today I will shower, brush my teeth, eat something, and get dressed. I will stay alive and get fresh air! I put on black clothes to show my loss, I walked into the 1D kitchen like it was the most normal thing in the world and grabbed some food from the cabinet. I took a seat on the counter as I realized the place was very messy. Liam walked in moments later and I saw that he was still sad as well; I probably should've talked to him or seen him because he had the same loss. "Hi" I said he jumped, shocked "Jessa" he growled "What no hello?" he just glared at me "What did I do?" he didn't answer "Li, I don't know what to say what's wrong?" "You, our baby, everything" "Liam I had the same loss and I didn't go outside for two weeks but I feel better now. I've gotten dressed and eaten because I know she wouldn't want me to be sad." "She?" "I think it would've been a she if..." "If you didn't let her die." "If I didn't let her die?! Liam I couldn't control that you don't think it's my fault do you?" He stared into my eyes and I knew that he did "I can't believe you think it's my fault. Liam I did not purposefully lose the baby you can't blame anything on me!" I nearly screamed "Well maybe if you took better care of yourself then it would still be alive right now!" he screamed back and I had tears in my eyes "I'm moving out, it's over, anything we had between us is gone, I'm done with you! Goodbye Liam!" I screamed at him as I ran out the front door crying and hoping into the car, putting my sunglasses on, and wanting to be anywhere but here. I ended up at Starbucks where my life took its turn. I thought about everything from Sam to the baby and things happened so fast within these past few months that I still can't believe I was homeless at one point. I said to Liam I was moving out and that's exactly what I'm going to do. I have no reason to go back there nothing is mine except for a few pairs of clothes and I can always buy more of them. I took a deep breath as I finished my coffee and noticed there were a bunch of paparazzi outside and they were surrounding my car, great. I pushed through them as they shot pictures of me and asked questions loudly. I tried getting into my car but they wouldn't move away from it. I just want to leave... "Hey! All of you better step 10 feet away from my car so I can leave or so help me God one of you fuckers will get hit!" I screamed angrily and they instantly backed off. As I left I called Simon and asked him if he could arrange a few open houses so I can find an apartment. He said yes and set a few up for today. I was glad to get my mind off everything. Many hours later, there are three apartments to choose from and I went with Apartment number two. It's perfect and just what I needed. Now all I have to do is tell the rest of the boys and Emily. This is going to be hard. I paid for my new apartment, got the keys, and started driving over to the 1D house hoping Liam wasn't there. I rang the doorbell feeling unsure that I did that and probably should've just walked in but oh well. Louis answered the door, whew! "Louis!" I said smiling and giving him a big hug He was tense at first but relaxed soon enough. I pulled back and said "I need to talk to all of you except Liam. Do you know where the rest of One Direction is?" "Yeah come in I'll go get them and Jessa you don't need to ring the bell you live here too you know." "Just go find the boys, please." He was appalled by my urgency, but applied as I sat on the couch and waited "Jessa!" screamed Niall rushing up to me and giving me a huge hug as Zayn, Harry, and Louis joined in. "Can't breathe!" I exclaimed as they let go smiling "Lou said you needed to talk?" asked Harry worriedly "Yes Haz, I'm moving out and I wanted to say goodbye and that I now live a few blocks away. So goodbye!" I said walking towards the door "Jessa!" said Zayn urgently "Yeah?" "Why are you leaving us?" he asked with a pouted lip I took a deep breath and said "I have money now. I can have my own apartment or mansion if I want. I don't need to rely on you guys any more. So, if you could give all my things to Emily that would be great, goodbye now." I turned around knocking into someone and nearly falling as they caught me. I looked up at him at his face, the face my little girl would've had. I stumbled out of his grip as it hurt me to see his familiar face. "Goodbye Liam" I said as I sped past him into my car and raced home calling Em and telling her to get my things and to bring some party clothes. I also called Perrie, Eleanor, and Holly. I really need a girl's night out. Tonight we are going to go clubbing!