Heartless [MxM]

***Heartless***{23}

I kept my eyes shut as I felt myself wake up, sighing irritably. I laid still for a second until I noticed something moving on my side.

My eyes snapped open, and I blinked a few times before slowly glancing down to see...

An arm.

I rolled my eyes at myself and frowned before turning over a bit to see exactly whosaid arm belonged to. I was slightly shocked to see Jace sleeping behind me. And I was more than shocked to see that he was naked.

I felt myself flush lightly before I remembered what had happened the night before, making me groan. We hadn't had sex, but it was a near thing. I slowly sat up, covering myself once I noticed my state of... nudity, as well. Jace stirred slightly before rolling over and hugging his pillow, making me smile as I crawled over him to retrieve my clothes. They had been thrown all over the room, so eventually I gave up and just got new ones, deciding on a shower.

The shower turned out to be a good idea. I managed to get some thinking done that would have otherwise been forgotten with Jace distracting me. Though I was sure he didn't mean to distract. It just sort of... Happened.

I quickly washed my hair and body before wrapping a towel around my waist, shaking my head in an attempt to get the excess water out. I stopped in front of the mirror, taking a good look at myself. It wasn't something I did usually, since I didn't really like to be reminded of what I looked like, but after seeing Jace...

I rubbed lightly at the thin skin on my cheek, frowning when it started to turn a pink color even at the light touch. My eyes stared back, practically lifeless with hardly any ability to see the light violet color that they were. I sighed and jumped slightly when I heard the bathroom door open, seeing Jace stumble in. “Oh shit, sorry. I thought you'd be in the kitchen or something by now.” he yawned as I glanced over him in the mirror, happy that he at least had on his boxers. “Woke up later than usual.” I murmured back. Jace smirked slightly, pushing me over slightly so he could grab a toothbrush.

I watched for a minute as he began to brush his teeth, occasionally smiling when he made a face at the taste of the toothpaste. Eventually though, I sighed, crossing my arms over my chest. It wasn't until he was about to leave the bathroom that I managed to speak up.

“... I don't know if I'm ready to trust you, Jace.”

I glanced up from my feet to the mirror, seeing Jace staring intently at the back of my head as he tapped on the doorway with his fingers. “I'm not asking you to,” he replied while shaking his head, “I'm just asking you to have some faith in me, that I won't just randomly leave you. Even if it's just a little.”

“... And if you do leave again? I don't want to be stuck here wondering if you'll be coming back.” I whispered. I felt his arms come around my waist from behind as he lightly kissed the top of my head. “Will, I told you, I had-”

“I know why you left, I'm not saying it was a bad thing to do.” I interrupted. It was silent for a minute until he sighed. “... But?”

“... I don't know if I can handle you leaving again. Especially after this.” I finished, ducking my head again as I felt him hug me tighter. “Will, I can't promise that I won't leave, but... I can promise that if I do, I will tell you, and I will be back. No matter what.” he said quietly, rubbing my hip with his thumb. “I know it's not the best thing in the world, but... It'll have to do. For now, at least.”

He smiled slightly to me in the mirror before letting go and leaving the bathroom, picking up his jeans on his way to the living room. I smiled as I watched him before turning back to the counter, leaning against it slightly and nodding to myself. “It'll do for now.”