The girl who fears love [Bard Ylvisaker]

Chapter 12 i'm back Bard's P.O.V {10 years later 2025}

I woke up and it was dark so so dark. I felt something or someone next to me. I lifted something heavy up over me. I had to dig dig and dig. Finally I saw light I climbed out of a hole than I tripped over a big rock or was it a rock? No it was a tombstone. It read "In loving memory of Bard Urheim Ylvisaker,March 21 1982- September 23 2015 loving dad,brother,husband" I was in shocked I didn't die. I knew that this was a sick prank that Vegard must of done. I looked down in the hole and I saw a baby in there looked like my daughter who me and Sam just lost Ocean. I shouted out loud "okay this really is a sick prank now fucking stop it" I was hoping that the lights would come on and Sam would come running out and hold me. Nothing happened. I decided to start walking maybe I could just walk home.

Sam's P.O.V {2 weeks earlier}

"mom who that guy holding Crystal?" Bay my daughter said to me. They was looking at their baby pictures for a school project they had to do. I looked at the picture and smiled "that's your dad and Ocean your sister" I could tell that they was both confused,they're there sister and their father died when they was just 1 month old and I don't like talking about them because it makes me depressed. "but.........daddy doesn't have blond hair and blue eyes" I looked down and said "no he doesn't but that's your birth father he and your sister Ocean died 10 years ago" "oh" they said. After a short silence Crystal said "can you tell me about him and that's the thing I wanna do for my project I wanna make it about my birth dad" I said "okay i'll help you out but just call him your dad because if you would call him that he would smack you than I would yell at him for smacking you" They laughed and said "how did he die" I sighed and said "he took pills but the Dr.s said that he had a heart attack because we just lost Ocean and my god he hated himself" they looked down and said "so can we do the project over him or is it a bad idea?" I thought about it for a sec and than I heard Bard's voice say "Please Samantha tell them about me" I get that alot but when he died I used to get versions of him like for example once my new husband Joe well he was my boyfriend at the time was driving and I swear that it was Bard he looked over at me and smiled and said "okay now I'm horny let's pull over I keep the condoms in the glovebox" it was true but then Joe snapped me outta it. "yeah you can do the project about him what's the project again?" Bay said "it's find someone who is most important to you who has passed on and tell about he/she meant to you who they are and that stuff" I smiled and said "i'll tell you whatever you need to know or want to know about him" they smiled.

The next day I got up and there was Izzy who is now 24 years old. She had my grandson Greg who was 1 year old. Her husband died last spring and she had problems with money but she had a job. We didn't talk much when she turned 18 she moved out she really didn't like the face I got married so soon after the death of her father. She was really sad because he had promised her that when she was 14 she won't lose them but she was 14 when Bard died she was like me but only she handled it better than I did. The girls didn't know who she was but they was still asleep. "mom I can't bring Greg to work could you please watch him" I nodded my head and said "yeah sure but shower I know that they turned off your water" we did talk a lot but on Facebook and we didn't talk face to face she looked too much like Bard and for Izzy being in the house where she would everyday wake up and see her dad watching tv. Izzy used to change the channel and turn on Dora and Bard would complain. She showered and when the girls woke up they asked who she was than Bay asked "can you help me with the school project we're doing it about dad your dad" Izzy said "our dad that other man was no father to me he hated me our dad would've loved you"

2 weeks later { night before Bard came back}

Bay's P.O.V

"so that's dad" I said to my mom. We was at his grave I put the flowers in the vace. Mom started to pull the weeds out she was crying and I looked over and I didn't see a grave for my sister Ocean. "where do you think Ocean buried at?" I asked my sister Crystal mom couldn't hear us because she was deaf we didn't learn sign language because dad didn't want us too and that was one of the reasons Izzy left the house the day she turned 18 was because her dad our real dad had learned and he taught me and Haylee. "mom where is our sister buried at?" I asked her she looked at our real dad's grave and said "to save money and because she meant the world to him we decided just to bury them together they was put in the same castet we put Bard in a suit the suit we had worn in his talk show and we put Ocean in the little pink dress I didn't like it but Bard loved it it said "daddy's little princess" Mom started to cry again and for once I started crying too I wanted to know what my dad was like. Mom told us everything but still dad could've taught us sign lunae and taught us Norks but he didn't have a chance I fell to the ground hugged the tombstone and said "dad I know I really didn't know you but I still love you I wish I could of lived with you I wish you never died" Crystal just looked at me weird and than she did the same thing. When we went home we was all crying and dad said "really Sam you took them there now there crying and so are you he's dead now Sam he's been dead for 10 years now get over it" that's when Izzy walked out with tears streaking down her face and said "dad would of grown some balls and take care of the crying girls take care of his family and he would of cry with us if we asked him too UNLIKE YOU,YOU JUST WANT THE SEX YOU JUST WANT US TO FORGET ABOUT MY DAD MOM'S FIRST LOVE AND WE we just want to keep him in our hearts but you won't let us. Than she ran off crying. It was true I asked her dad didn't want us to talk about our birth dad because mom would cry and he didn't like to cry so he said that mom couldn't talk about him or tell us but we wanted to know everything about him everything.

Sam's P.O.V

When Bard came up to me and started hugging me I just pushed him away I knew that it was only the visions back again but it has been 9 years since but today was the day that Bard was dead for 10 years now. Later that night I walked outside Joe was on a business trip and the girls was at Joe's sister's house. I saw Bard lying there on the bench. It was cold outside too cold for him to sleep out there. I tap his shoulder and he sat up and said "oh so now you wanna talk to me?" I smiled and said "I know you're only in my mind but still I can't leave you out here to freeze and die.........again." Bard looked at me like I was crazy but I didn't care. When we walked into the bedroom Bard said "Sammy what happened to me? What year is it? Why do you look older?" I sighed and said "well after Ocean died you took pills and you died it's 2025 10 years after you died to the day and i'm 35 now and you would be 43 but sadly you died"

Bard's P.O.V

After Sam said that I looked over and on her laptop it said "10 years after the tragic death of her husband Bard Ylvisaker" It had the date too and that's when something clicked I remembered that I did die I remember the talk I had with the headmaster of heaven the lord he said if I do come back I wouldn't have any memories and if my wife and my kids put tears in my grave which they did. "Sam I'm back i'm not just in your head i'm alive" I said to her she started saying "yes you are but it's okay" I cut her off and I kissed her hard and said "now would A verson do that and would a visions do what i'm about to do to you Sam?" She shook her head no than I kissed her again and I took off our cloths. We got physical and I loved it after we was done Sam was asleep and I needed a shower I still had dirt from where I had to dig myself out of my grave. I showered but I didn't have any of my cloths so I had to wear Joe's ugly ass clothes I did meant Joe he asked me why I was stalking his family and I thought "bitch there my kids she's MY wife and that's my house who the hell are you?" but I didn't say that I just said "i'm sorry your children walked up to me and my ride should be here to pick me up in the morning i'm just waiting" It was a lie but he didn't need to know that.

Sam's P.O.V

I got woken up by Bard coming back to bed he wrapped his arms around me and said "i'm sorry Sammy I wanted to shower just hold me" and he did and I held him too" and we both fell asleep BEEP BEEP BEEP I woke up with a flash I got up and Bard was standing there with a bat in his hand and Izzy was standing there with Greg her son she was just standing there in shocked "I know" I said they both looked at me "but I think he really is back" Then Izzy started crying she ran to Bard who was still shirtless from last night Bard put his arms around her I didn't think he knew who she was because she looks and dress different from when she was 14. "Isabella?" Bard questioned Izzy noded her head and that's when Bard put his arms around her and said "you're you're" she cut him off and said "i'm all grown up" Bard had tears of joy and then he looked over at the little 1 year old baby and then looked back at Izzy and said "yours?" she noded her head and Bard said "no I don't want to be a grandpa" Izzy knew that he was kidding but Bard took the kid and held him close. Izzy left the kid and Bard just fell in love with him. I told him about her husband and how she could barely afford to pay her rent and about how Joe don't want her to move in and Bard got mad. "okay I don't get it if he feels like he has to compete with a dead guy than he is a fucking...fuck tard" I said "Bard I don't know he don't like it when we talk about you" "okay but still if it was you who died I don't care what the bitch says i'm going to remember my wife okay goddamn AHHH" I could tell that he was really mad. I kissed him to calm him down it worked. "I just don't get it" Bard said.

Later that day we went to the store, We got all of the things that Bard liked I told them about the project and he was happy about it but now he wanted to meet them now that he was alive but I knew it wasn't a good idea I don't know how to explain it to them and Joe would kill me but if I had to pick I knew I would pick Bard I loved him we had kids together and we had a life together.