"White Diamond"

To do myself

It was another morning without Rodger again. What made it worse was waking up with hormones at it's highest level. She was hallucinating on his scent which still filled the room. He wasn't here! He won't be! She craved him to be inside her. The absence of waking up to Rodger licking and sucking at her clitoris as he played with her swollen nub. To watch him smile , to tug at those locks of his knowing it turned him completely on. You know the sadness that trigger at your emotion but then a hug would do? As for Ebony she needed a vagina hug,to have her walls clenching at his dick as he thrust inside her.
She remembered the dildo she had brought yesterday. Sometimes when you pay your own bill , one must play with their own vagina too! Desperate times call for desperate measures. She don't have no one to give her the release she needed. Well not at the moment so she decided to do herself! She pull out the sex toy from beneath the bed which was where she hid it. She was deeming on whether she should or not. Never knew it would come to this point ! She hoped she don't break her finger or maybe the dildo. She silently laughed at herself and thought maybe Rodger could join in a little phone sex. She went to the bathroom to go and disinfect the sex toy. Having the knowledge of its better to prevent than to be sorry. She wasn't trying to catch an infection not while she was expecting! She got her phone and insisted on dialing his number. Then she waited for him to answer.
"Hey Rodger " to be disappointed by his voicemail picking up. It played in her thoughts the day he had made it. Along with her at the end of the voicemail saying "and if he don't pick up,it's cause he's making love to me". It kind of hurt that he didn't even acknowledge her phone call. Rodger was never the one to not pick up her calls . Never! Unless he was in bed with someone else ! Unless his phone was out of commission. It made her upset, but still she had a body starved of sex waiting to be pleased. She thirst him but his presence wasn't announce .Just as water he rehydrated her, and she needed that sex monster in her to be calmed. She removed her clothing not knowing how to do it! She thought about the night when Rodger had bend her over and did her from behind. She gasped at the thought and sealed her eyes shut. She began running her finger slightly across her skin as Rodger would touch her. She started touching her nipples twirling it lightly as Rodger would do her. Then she spread her legs rubbing on her clitoris up and down slowly until she was moist enough. Self stimulation isn't that hard once you know what pleases you! The speed, how to thrust and what makes you moan in pleasure.
She gradually slipped in a finger into the opening of her womanhood. As she started shoving her finger inside of her making her moan making it difficult for her to play with her swollen nub. It wasn't ample ; she need more the fingering wasn't enough to make her delighted. She had the obsession of the need to release this moment. Having the knowledge that this wasn't enough she reach out to her dildo sliding it in leisurely. Opening the entrance of her vagina it was a perfect fit. Just about the size of Rodgers dick. She thrust the dildo deeper in her whining, as she uttered a piercing cry. It was huge. The imitation of a man's penis did the job of substituting Rodger for her. She squeaked once more as the contentment of the pain made her almost near orgasm. Pain is pleasure right! She thought about Rodger and the way he'd whine in her hole and so did she whine on the dildo as she thrust the dildo repetitive ly in and out her vagina. He wasn't there to spend time in her hole so she let a dildo intrude inside her vagina. She started jolting the dildo inside of her once more changing speed, she went fast!
Extremely rough!
Then she went deep!
Deeper! As she was having continuous fantasies of her and Rodgers past sex actions.
She twisted and turn, screamed and Yelp uttering words of "fucks" and "oh yeahhhhhh" as she whine in the experience of pleasure. She was near her breaking point. She felt her knees going weak as she collapsed in orgasm. Breathing heavily she thought to herself what a release. Then she wiped her vagina's fluid of her as she fall into deep sleep.
She had become roused from her sleep feeling weak and hungry. She slid of the bed making her way to the kitchen with intentions to satisfy her hunger. Confused on what to eat she finally decided on making a fettuccine. It was the advantage of being her boss's secretary. She had always give her stuff monthly including lobster fish and other proteins. She started making her pot and it was done in about ten minutes with pasta being already prep. As she turned around removing two plates from the stacks and then she remembered Rodger won't be coming home! She had already been accustomed to making dinner for two but today it was just one. She sighed deeply knowing how much she had missed him. Hoping he do come back..
Baby won't you come back..please come back Rodger, it's hard sleeping without you. I don't want to live like this. I'm sorry for the words I've said. They were out of anger. I don't want to let you go. Can't forget you. I wish life could go back to being normal. When we wasn't fighting. When I didn't have to fuck myself. I miss the way we were and detest what we have become.
As she thought to herself making her sad and hoping he do come back tonight. Her bed felt different and she felt like she was residing in a different world. A world without Rodger and it made her felt like she lived in darkness. The absence of Rodger made her to not have appetite. She pushed her plate aside and felt a tear trickled down her cheat. She started sobbing in her palms knowing how much she fucking missed him. But she must eat and it was for the sake of their baby. Their, it was their baby the thought of this made her smile.
His.
Mines.
Their baby.
She force herself to eat and soon her body started accepting the food. She was no longer sad but happy that she was having his baby. And it was a princess! A girl that she'd probably name Emily. Emily, as she agreed to the name in her thoughts. She thought about dressing her baby up in pink clothing. A child that would run her hot and make her smile later.
After lunch she had got dressed and head to work happy as a horse. Smiling as she walk passed her coworker as she told them "hello." Everyone look at her shocked wandering why she so sunny. It must have been good dick as the others thought. More like a dildo knowing Rodger is missing. She brush off the thought knowing she mustn't stress her daughter. After long hours of work doing the same boring things for Cynthia. Making schedules, pay rolls and other necessary things her boss needed. She was finally off! She walked tiredly to her car and drive home in hope to meet Rodger there. When she had reach to her disappointment he wasn't there again.
So sad.
She missed him.
She hoped that he come home one day.
Oh Rodger where are you. Didn't know you could be so petty! Arghhhhh