"White Diamond"

Single

I felt empty, I felt angry and I knew I deserved everything Ebony put me through. I looked at my phone and notice a missed call from Ivory. What the fuck she wants now. Where was she when I got tied up and left to die. Damn I never knew Ebony had so much anger in her. It was like an angel had remove its clothes and when naked she's the devil. I knew it wasn't my girl out there the few hours back. I headed towards the bathroom to wash off the blood. She had me bleeding good and shit my dick hurt too. I've never been so shocked when she was about to stab me while I laid on the floor. I wish there was someway that she could forgive me.
      He started cleaning himself up and changed in a new pair of clothes that Jamal gave him. He walked out and met his whole circle waiting to go on war.
           "Jamal called us and said you got beat up, who the fuck did you that! Nigga let's go drop some bodies!" one said. Rodger chuckled to himself but stopped when it cause the side where Ivory kicked him to hurt. He shook his head thinking to himself of how he'd let a woman beat him up.
             " I wasn't beat up by no dude, I think she caught me having fornicating   her best friend. She caught us by surprise and just attack. Shit! She tried burned my dick." They glared at him and started laughing.
  "Really nigga? Fornicating, you think you in college ae...gotta be so sophisticated. You tryna make it seem clean."
Wondering how in the world could Rodger had fuck up so bad. Who the hell does that! Out of all the woman in the world he picked to fuck her best friend. That was a no no in their book. They was disappointed in Rodger and they asked what happened to Ivory. Upon the mentioning of her name he took out his cellular.
          "Hey Siri, call my bitch" as he communicate to his IPhone.
          "Ok calling my bitch" Siri replied and then Ivory had pick up. She started gushing with worry about the blood she'd found on the floor . Then she told him how Ebony had dragged her out of the car and beat the shit out of her.      
           Rodger friends started laughing out loud regretting that they wasn't there to witness such live scene. They had remembered the times when Ebony had said  "the only way Rodger can come out this relationship is by death. ". She must have been a real psycho to be able to make an act like that.
Dangerous!
Insane !
After hearing Ivory blabbering and being annoyed by his friends continuous laughter in the background he told her bye. They looked at him and burst out in laughter!
           "Damn Ebony must be missing a screw!" Jamal had lit a joint and passed it on to him. He took a pull and released the puff of smoke in the air. It relieved him and made him felt a bit stress free. He started contemplating and wondered if there was any chance that he'd get her back. Was their anyway to save their relationship. Would she at least consider the thought for the sake of their child!
         "She told me to forget what me and her had, I'm single, shit I regret what I did. This is worse than loosing Petra!" Jamal came and pat him on the shoulder reminding him that there are plenty fishes in the sea. He didn't want no other fish but the one that had swam away from him. They insisted on going to a strip club to cheer him up.
           After dressing up they all rode to the strip club on west Bay Street called magic city. Even the woman at the club didn't roused him. Drinks, joints after joints including shots and still neither made him felt any better. He felt like shit! He felt useless!
          "What you doing bey,you see that girl over there, go and drown your dick in her pussy" he resisted asking his friends to drop him back home. He didn't need this. He wanted to be next to the woman that he knew loved him before he broke her heart. He wished their was some way that he can crawl himself right back into Ebony heart.
      I wanted to do right by her. To hold our baby in my arms and watch her grow. I wanted to be there to every doctor's visit. I had messed up real bad. Ain't no way she gone forgive me. You know how long it took to gain ebony's trust. How long it took me to get her to say yes! Shit I was her first. I remembered how she'd jump when I first touched her. The way she had flinched knowing that anyone was capable of hurting her.
         He had gain her trust,her affection and most importantly her love. He painfully regretted what he had done and curse his dick for not having a conscious of its own. If only he could change the hands of time. If only he didn't do what he had done. Then today would've been different than what it is now. Today he wouldn't have been almost killed by his own girlfriend. Today he wouldn't have had blood gushing from behind his head. He decided to sleep the rest of the night off. He couldn't run from his problems not hide from it. He knew Ebony was a deep thinker and couldn't help but think of her sleeping through pain. The thought of her crying made him scold himself. He hope that she forgive him, he couldn't help the thought of her laying down crying in her sleep.he was the cost of her not wanting to see him. He wished she'd forgive him even when she seemed heartless. To give affection and love yet forgetting what had happened between them. He knew that she had been the only woman he'd love . He wished he was omi who had a cheerleader and that no one couldn't tempt him from making him cheat. Unlike him he had found a cheerleader!She had reasons but he wanted to before he had fall into deep sleep with thoughts of Ebony running through his mind.