I looked at myself crying and outrageously hurting, I was still at Carly's and I for sure didn't want to tell her what just happened between me and Michael, I hate him, I hate him so much, I hope someone breaks his heart and stomps on it just like he did mine, I hope he never finds someone that will love him, I hope he gets into a car accident and dies, I hope he catches aids.
I looked at myself in the mirror again and shook my head, what was I thinking? This is my fault I did this, if I would've never agreed to "start all over" this wouldn't be happening to me, I wiped my face and went into Carly's kitchen where she was preparing multiple blends of drinks and other things and I looked at her and she handed me a drink "try this"
I looked at it and it was pink, I looked at her and then chugged the drink down it caused a burning sensation in my Throat and I liked it.
"What's this?" I asked downing another drink
"It WAS peach ciroc"
"It's good"
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After a while we found our selves rather tipsy, she started to talk about all the times she's had with Derrick and it reminded me so much of Michael, "oh and it was this one time I felt so safe wrapped in his arms you wouldn't of even knew"
I shook my head, trust me I knew.
"What about you and that kid mike"
"Michael?"
She nodded and took a sip of her drink "dammit all we have left is this" she said bringing over a bottle of Hennessy to the island we were sitting at in her kitchen, she poured me a cup and then herself, even the smell of it reminded me of him.
"So now tell me about this bad boy that made you go crazy"
I sighed and looked up at her big brown eyes waiting for me to tell my stories, She's told me about hers so why not.
"I-I remember this one time we stayed out all night driving around and playing this song and he was speeding and laughing and we were both high and it was so fun, it's like all my problems with school and the bullshit with my dad, it was all gone"
"What song was playing" she asked
I closed my eyes and smiled to myself "it was real good lovin by Miguel" I said it only above a whisper to keep myself from crying
"You guys are like a movie"
"What do you mean by that?"
"Like a happily ever after"
I smiled and then but my lip
"Happily ever after isn't real Carly"
"What do you mean by that?" She said mocking me
"If Michael was my 'happily ever after' that stuff isn't real because he left me"
"He left you?!"
"Well we weren't really together, not officially, but I know deep down inside me I love him, I really do"
"What happened?"
"He- he said we can't see each other anymore"
"Did he tell you why"
I didn't wanna really tell her but then again she told me about Derrick and her
"He says that he made me into a bad person, but that's not true"
She nodded then took a sip of her drink "Aren't you gonna drink that?" She laughed
I smiled a little and picked up the liquid, I observed it for a minute and took a sip. It doesn't even taste as nearly the same without him.
