Fixable

Numb

Raylin's POV

I ran back home, struggling to see because of my tears blocking my view. I finally got to my house, and didn't see any cars in the driveway. Good. My mom isn't home. I ran into my house and slammed the door shut. I locked it and run upstairs. I ran into the bathroom and collapsed on the ground. Screaming, and crying. Unable to feel my body. Not able to feel anything. I feel so numb now. Everyone knows.
Everybody knows your dirty little secret. It's all your fault. Everything is your fault. You did this to yourself.
At that point, I felt like I couldn't breathe. I couldn't see, I couldn't feel anything. I was just numb. I clutched my knees to my chest and dug my face into my knees. I screamed and cried. Why does this always happen to me?

*3 hours later...*

I was still in the bathroom. I still felt numb. I just wanted to die. I finally realized my mom would be home soon, so I stood up. I looked in the mirror but quickly looked away. I didn't want to see that mistake. I went and changed into some sweatpants and a baggy long sleeve shirt. I'm done trying. I crawled into bed and just curled into a little ball. I closed my eyes and fell asleep.

A couple hours later....

I woke up with a sudden jolt. My mom was shaking me. "Finally your up!" She yelled. "Wh- what?" I asked. "Okay so I got home from work around 9ish and I texted you but you didn't reply and then I found you asleep so I let you sleep and it's the next day now and you have school lets go! It's Friday luckily! But come on Sweetie! Breakfast is downstairs. I'll be waiting." She smiled. Nonononononono! This can't be happening. I can't go today. "Uh, mom?" I faked a cough. "I don't feel that good." I lied, but partially telling the truth. She turned around and shook her head. "Raylin, don't lie about stuff like that! Your too old to do that, you have to go to school. Come on get up. It's Friday! I'll be downstairs." She said leaving and shutting my door. I just sat there. Again, feeling numb. I can't go back there. I just can't. That's it. I'm gonna do something I haven't done in a really long time. Skipping. I stood up grudgingly, and walked over to my closet. I put on some back leggings and a grey sweatshirt. I went into my bathroom and brushed my hair and put it in a low pomytail. I put makeup on to cover up my ugly face. I finished that and slipped on my converse. I grabbed my backpack and slipped my purse inside it. I then walked downstairs. "Hi." I said. "Hello! Feeling better?" She asked. "I'm fine." I lied. "That's good. Have you had breakfa-" "I need to go. Bye." I said and rushed out the door. I didn't go to the bus stop, I went down the pathway and sat on a bench. I pulled out my phone and started to watch funny cat videos to make me smile. At least try to make me smile...

Casper's POV

I admit. I felt bad for Raylin. I knew she was lying about her cat, about how she doesn't cut, about how she's fine. I had to step in and save her, I mean she could've got super hurt! Whatever, I'll talk to her at school today. I got to the school and walked to my locker. I looked over at Raylin's locker, but I didn't see her yet. I sighed and collected my books for my class. I waited a bit longer but still no sign of her. I groaned and walked into my first class. I just wish she would let me in.
I wish she would see past all of the hurt in her life, and just me in.
I understand what she's going through. I wish she knew that. I wish she would let me in. Tell me the truth. Let me help her.
Let me...
Fix her.