Facing reality

2) Guilt

16th September 2015
12:00pm

Amanda's POV

Its been one year and yet I don't know about her whereabouts. I hope shes fine wherever she is but then that's just merely hope. Emily Bane jones, I still remember it like its yesterday, a beautiful baby girl admist all those chaotic events. But despite the dark past, she bloomed into a pure flower; graceful and beautiful, I kept a constant watch on her throughout her growing years but barely did I get a hunch that something wasn't right about her. She was a strong girl and still is, I know she is out there but I cant reach out to her. I Wasn't there when she needed me and I know its entirely my fault but now I got to make it up-to her.

" Excuse me Madam, theres a young man by the name Shawn Mendel here to meet you,should I let him in?".

Shawn Mendel. Did I hear that right? Is the devil child out of his spawn?.

" Send  him right through".

Shawn was a handsome boy, no doubt but then he was a son-of-a-bitch. This is officially the first time I'm going to meet him ,in two years after  constantly trying to contact him.

" Amanda right? Im shawn..

Before he could even finish, I slapped him hard, not once but twice. He stood there, shocked and red-eyed, after a couple of minutes he finally responded

" maybe, I deserved that".

" You deserve more than that Shawn"

" You need to listen to me before you get to judge that".

" Im all ears, son".

" I know you think that I'm a coward and yes I am, I couldn't stand up for what I wanted to do. I didn't want to abandon her, Amanda, you should know that but then I was helpless, I cant fight against my father, i wouldn't have been able to take care of them without his financial support. I tried to convince him but it never really worked out. And before I could do anything, she fled  from here stealing all my money, which I don't mind as long as its for our child. I tried all the sources I had, to find them but then I failed once again. My dad sent me to Australia and it wasn't until a few days back, I came to know about you and for the next flight itself I flew back just to meet and help you. I need to  right all my wrong deeds, to see and apologize to her, to see my child and to bring them back into my life".

I knew he meant whatever he said. I could see it in his eyes. Well, everyone makes mistakes, some unforgivable, but only a few worthy ones get the chance to make it right.

" If u wanted a second chance, I can give that, but if you screw up once more then its not in my hands". I warned.

"If that happens I wont bother you ever again and since my dad doesn't know that I'm here,  hes not going to be a problem".

"Before we start , theres something I wanted you to know about Emily. Something about her past."

He looked over at me with curiosity," What happened?".

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