My Friend (Harry Potter Love Story) ~ Years 5-7~

Story Update

I've been meaning to talk about this.

I don't know if I've talked about how I've been doing and how I've been feeling lately and why I haven't update lately, but I would just put this aside thinking none of you would really care about this and this is just something about me and this'll pass. Nothing is happening and I really need to tell you guys.

This year has been hard on me, since Last April I haven't updated much on either here or Quotev and I would start thinking "What's the point anymore?" I know, I know, your all thinking; "Indigo! This is your dream! You can't give up now!"

I understand if you've felt that way, this is just how I've been feeling and I feel like you should all deserve to know what's going on.

The thing is...writing has been feeling like a chore for me to do, like I need to entertain all of you, to make you laugh, smile, enjoy my story's. I hate the feeling so much. So the past couple months I've been doing things to get the passion back so I'd update more often because I love writing, it calms me down when I'm angry, I cry whenever I'm writing something sad.

I've tried everything to get this passion back. Going out, Taking walks around the park, watching clouds with my mother! But nothing is happening, no passion, no inspiration, nothing.

This might be some sort of hormones thing happening since I've turned 14 this year and from what I hear, nobody would want to be 14 again if they had the choice.

I've mostly just thought about my education and my future, since that's what you should normally do when you're 14, right? 4 years before you go to collage.

My Dad has been putting pressure on my shoulders about doing things myself and would snap at me whenever I'd do something wrong and feel like the stupidst(sp?) person alive, don't get me wrong, I love my father I couldn't ask for a better father in my life. He cares so much, he just doesn't realize how much it hurts. I'm used to this though.

I just have so much pressure on my shoulders I need a escape from everything, writing, my father, my life. I know I can't, but just like what Monica said on FRIENDS: Everything will fall into piece and be....un-floopy.

And, it's a eclipse tonight, all about new paths, and this path for me is to find myself and be the human being I want to be. To focus what I need. I'll update, but it'll be a while.

You have to understand, Minions, I love you all so much. You make me happy and cry tears of happiness you don't understand how much of the love I have for you all. You're all my little army of Minions. I want to make sure my Minions are okay and nothing happens to any of you that's bad because I'm right here to talk, my Inbox is always open for rants or anything.

I really hope you'll understand and will still stick with me through this, and not hate me either, I just need a few days, maybe a month, to myself. The depression, stress, and my future has became too much.

Understand when I say "I love you Minions" I really mean it.

I really hope you'll love future chapters of this story and will enjoy yourself of this story, or any story I've been writing.

Byee ♥