Broken {Sequel to Murderer}

10.

Im sorry i haven't updated.. School is just a lot rn .

Song of the day: Gasoline By: Halsey. (Mom af happy birthday to her)
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Luke

I stare at the wall blankly with the steaming mug in my hand not caring it was burning my hand and i blink. Today marked a month since Michael died and to say I'm fine is a lie. I haven't been fine since the funeral.

Calum walks into the room staring at me. "Babe! I was thinking i could take you somewhere today! What do you say?" He smiles at me standing in front of me and i just stare at him blankly and shaking my head no.

He frowns. "Luke we never do anything anymore! I know. You lost your best friend he was my friend too! You don't even look me in the eye anymore." He said as i stare at his shirt hearing the hurt in his voice and i stay silent.

He sighs and walks out of the room and i hear a door slam but i sit quietly taking a huge gulp of my drink not caring how it burned my tongue and i get up walking into the bathroom looking at myself in the mirror seeing bags under my eyes and tear stained cheeks and i blink again. I shake my head wondering how anyone could stand looking at me. I had obviously lost a lot of weight due to me refusing to eat much always ignoring the disappointing and sad look in Calum's eyes.

I know I'm hurting him. I don't know why he's still with me. Honestly i haven't even kissed him since Michael died. Some people would say I'm over reacting, i just don't care.

I run a hand through my hair and walk into the kitchen and sitting at the table going onto my phone staring at the picture of me and Michael longer than needed and i feel my eyes well up with tears again but i wipe them away. I've cried too much today.

I hear footsteps behind me and feel a presence next to me and i look up seeing Calum. He looks at me in the eyes and i can tell that he's been crying.

"Luke. I want to know something.. Do you even still care about me? I feel like you don't care. All you care about is that Michael is dead. You don't show any feelings towards me or affection. I try to talk to you. I try to kiss you but all you do is turn away and honestly i feel rejected and not wanted. So.. answer honestly. Do you still want me Luke?" He asks brokenly.

I stare up at him looking into his eyes for once and sigh.

"I don't know." I say honestly and look down.
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Ok idk how i feel about this it makes me sad :(

-jay