So ever since last month I have been having really bad nightmares and I'm not a hundred percent sure but I know that something is coming....... Something BAD !!!!! I hope I have your attention because this next part is serious. So in these nightmares I am able to clearly see what happens and I know I'm having a lucid dream but when I get to choose the faith of who and what my mind wonders into murder .. I am self harming and I don't fully understand why but I am extremely depressed. I put on a fake smile for my friends but when I'm actually around them my laugh turns into a real sign of hope.... And ....... Joy but then that all fades away. I wonder why or what has me so depressed ??? I would love to know so I could kick it in the ass. Everyday I wonder ... What does this mean , what effect will it have on me today and how serious will this affect me. I need help. I know that. But these voices in my head are telling me I'm fine, that I don't need help because everything is okay once I carry out my daily routine of waking self harming, and lying in bed self harming. See friends love my and I know this but I feel like no one is there anymore even though I know they are. I feel lonely, I feel sick to my stomach when I see my reflection in the mirror, and I wonder what would happen if I never existed on this planet we call earth?? It's a question I never seem to retrieve the answer for.
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Don't look back
NonfiksiThey are everywhere.... even if you don't know it.....DONT LOOK BACK !!!!! This is based on a true story .
