Don't look back

5. Why

You all have officially found out who my family are and even who I am which is very rare due to the fact i don't like to socialize much but i never really went into depth about my whole self harming situation e.g. why I do it, when it started, who caused it or what caused it and what the whole experience is like. So lets start off with why i do it.......... I do it because it gives me a sense of relief or a sense of comfort and I feel like I'm away from all of my troubles in the outside world. I feel like no body can annoy me or frustrate me but I eventually caught on the along with the actual troubles I have, self harming is just adding more and more problems onto my extremely high stack of troubles. But that didn't stop me from causing myself pain each and everyday. Now onto when it started. Okay it started when i was 8 years old. I have told people this and they just say it was a faze and that the thought of self harming would just wash away like everything else i told them but the only person who under stud me was my best friend Thea. She has told me umpteen times that she doesn't feel like i should do it but did that stop me? NO. So really in the end the only person who actually  under stud me was me i guess. And finally what its like. Like I said it gives me a sense of comfort. Now before you jump to conclusions let me get something clear. I do it because i choose to. I know that we all have our opinions and I understand that just please don't reflect them upon me. I do it because I'm happier in the state of mind.

NOW BEFORE YOU READ ON YOU SHOULD KNOW THAT THE NEXT CHAPTER IS THE SECOND LAST CHAPTER BUT I WILL BE MAKING MORE STORIES AND IF YOU WOULD LIKE PLEASE LEAVE RECOMMENDATIONS IN THE COMMENTS AND ALSO IF YOU WANT TO BE IN THE NEXT STORY JUST MESSAGE ME YOUR OC. DON'T PUT IT IN THE COMMENTS AS IT WOULD RUIN IT FOR OTHERS.       

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