Learning How to Live Life

Chapter 1

Many people have the life of a dream. They get what they want, they do great in school, they have the group of friends everyone wishes they had. They have the "squad goals". They're always bragging how perfect their life is. You just want to tell them to shut up. That not everyone's life is like theirs. Sometimes it's jealously, but sometimes it's actually the fact that it hurts you that you would never be able to be like them.

I get that sensation to stare at someone and think 'I wonder if their life is perfect'. Which it probably isn't because no one has a perfect life. Everyone struggles with things. Either family problems, lack of love or too spoiled that they feel like they're better than you.

I don't have that much friends. I have a small group but let's just they're the friends of the person who is truly my friend. At least that's what I believe. I'm a freshman. All of my friends came to the same highschool as me. Mostly that's a good thing because in the first day of school you don't sit alone. But for me its something I wish it didn't happened. If they wouldn't have come to same school I would've made new friends and sit with different people. Or I could've just sit alone which I think that would've been way better than right now.

They don't know that I don't want to sit with them anymore. Possibly be friends with them anymore. All because I feel left out. All of them like anime except me. I hate anime. I don't find anything exciting in it. I feel left out because they're loud and I'm quiet. I feel like I don't belong in their group. But most important I feel like that because I know if I need something or need someone, they wouldn't be there for me. If I'm dying, no one would know because they never bother to ask how I am or if in alright.

Whenever I see a group of friends that are laughing and hanging outside school I have the feeling of crying because I see my friends and realize that would never be us. We would never hang out like that. Because they're not true friends. Some people start hanging out after like two weeks they met. I've had my "friends" for like two years now and we never hang out for like thirty minutes.

Best friends. Best friends are people that everyone has. Either like four best friends or just one. I have one. We've been best friends since 6th grade. I've always thought we would be the type of friends that hang out almost everyday. The type of friends that call each other for two hours. But sadly to my disappointment I was wrong. She never calls me and if I call her she won't answer. She answers my text after one hour I sent it. We hang out like once every three months. My dreams of a perfect best friend went down the drain.

Sometimes I cry alone and think to myself why would I ever think that I would have try friends. The friends that always have your back no matter what. The friend the would threatend someone to hurt them if they ever hurt you. I'm pretty sure most of you have that friend.

I just hope that one day everything changes and that all of my dreams come true.

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Hey guys this is my first chapter! I know its super short, but I just wanted to show you what type of story this is going to be like.

Next chapter is going to be much better. I promise! Don't forget this is my first story ever so please don't be mean and judge me on my writing skills. I promise everything will get better as I keep writing.

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Xoxo- Bizzleflyy