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Heart Beat

Next Day...

Haru, Wake up you have school today!!!
Sorry mum i dont feel like going anymore, mum exclaimed "what dont spout non sense on such an early morning, now hurry before you miss your bus..."
Haru went to school like normal, well accept for the fact that she needed to force a smile but no one really noticed because she is actually very good at lying...

Yume came to school, Haru and Yume pretended nothing happen, for both of there sake because they dont want to fight over a guy, although it was painful her heart aches really intensely...

The whole day seems normal to everybody accept me and when its hometime during the corridor Haru Passed Hiro, Her Heart beat was strong she felt happy and grin all the way to the bus, suddenly she remembered that Hiro like her friend Yume, and so Haru gradually stop grinning and has started to become real deppressed, even though she felt like that, she knew nothing will change. She really wanted to say " please give me a chance dont leave me with a scar in my heart." But its harder than said...

Haru didnt felt like wanting to eat or do anything that day, she felt sad all day long and when she takes a bath she keeps on remembering things she doesnt want to remember and kept crying until her eyes all red...

Haru wants to love Hiro, that was the only thing she wanted, but when Hiro said i like you no more than as a friend, Haru felt as if Hiro said "dont bother me anymore,i hate you, you're a nuisance...well lets call this a women instinct..."

Yume was also a good friend she keeps on saying dont worry i don'tlike him and i wont like him...It Makes Haru feel guilty for staying in the way of Hiro's love by loving him too much.
So in otherwords Both Haru and Yume felt guilty against each other...

But as year passes by

Evrything was back to normal but there was still something left in Haru's heart, it was a deep scar...A scar that can no longer be cure...

As days go on Haru keeps pretending "owh that guy's so hot i like him!"
"Owh that guys is 10x better then anyone..."
"Omg i cant stop blushing!!!"
This days woudnt stop repeating and Haru cant stop but feel
hurt...

Sometimes Haru keep on saying owh god why did i fell in love, why did i meet someone I'm not destined to be with, sometimes i wish i could be a robot,since a robot will not have feeling nor will it ever get hurt unless its programmed to so...

Every time Haru sees Hiro Sharp pain throbbed her heart...Her heart seems fragile, and so it might break soon because even a scar was cast there, its like a curse...If her heart is broken, she will have no expression on her face, she will have no desire at all, she will have no feelings, and she might as well be hated by people for being different, for not even caring if someone else got there heart broken, or even if someone was mad at her and she looks as if she doesnt even care...

Living a life like that is Painful...Imagine you being in her state...