MEANIE.

[2] For a Good Reason

[MINGYU]
"Jeon Wonwoo..." I whispered to myself. That guy, I can't really understand him that much. Whenever I go near him, he avoids me. Does he hate me? Ugh. Frustrating. Very frustrating.

"Yah. Mingyu-ah, please tell Wonwoo to hurry up." Said Doogi-PD as he went out of the building ahead. I just nodded even though I didn't have the confidence. I went inside the kitchen and sigh. There he is. His back facing me. It's seems like he's not aware of my presence. Should I call out his name? Or should I approach him before I say his name? Or should I just poke him and then go away? Damn, the struggles.

To be honest, I'm nervous. Looking at his back and feeling the atmosphere gives me this feeling of anxiety. It makes me feel fear. Maybe the fear of being ignored. Especially by the ones who are special to you.

Okay. I've decided. I walked towards him and touched his shoulder. He immediately faced me and then jerked. He looked startled.

"Uhm. Doogi-PD said to hurry up." I said, not looking at him. He just nodded and walked past me.

The feeling that you want to make everything mutual but there's always this thought that scares you and builds a wall between you and the people you love. Yeah, Jeon Wonwoo is special to me. I like him. There's a wall between us-- And I want that wall to go away.

"Wonwoo-hyung." I called him.
He stopped for a moment and looked back at me. Well, not really looking at me but more like looking at the ground where I'm standing. Awkward af. I was waiting for him to say something but I guess he was waiting for me to say something too because I was the one who called him. And f, I just realized that. Oh Kim Mingyu, what a genius.
"Uh... Oh, uhm." I said, or more like mumbled. Where does my intelligence go in times like this?
"If you don't have anything to say, then I'll just go ahead." He said and then he was gone.
"Okaaaaay." I stood there for a couple of minutes and wondered what I did to him for him to get so mad. After that, I followed him out because they were shouting my name telling me to hurry up.

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I rode the second van since the first one already drove off ahead. Sigh. I looked for an empty seat and found the back part unoccupied (which is a 2-seater). I went in and looked at the person next to me.

"Fck." I cursed when I saw Wonwoo-hyung beside me. They all looked at me with the expression that conveys, "what the hell is wrong dude." Well, kind of. I just shook my head and tried my best not to look at Wonwoo-hyung, which is a hard thing to do since we usually play and chat when we're beside each other. Usually.

5 minutes has passed and it's awkward. This atmosphere makes me want to jump out of the van and go home to my mom lol. The other members are quiet and that is unusual, very unusual. They're maybe tired or most probably, they've noticed the awkward atmosphere between the two guys sitting at the backseat.

I should just pretend that I'm sleeping. Yeah, I should try that. I leaned on the window pane and closed my eyes. Is this convincing? I think it's not enough. I grabbed my earphones and plugged it into my phone. I pretended to scroll and choose songs but I never played any. Now this is convincing. They should hire me as an actor or something HA HA.

I half-opened my eyes and saw Wonwoo-hyung staring at me through my peripheral vision. Yeah, he's defini- WHAT. Is he really? I peeked a little by twisting my head towards his direction, with half-opened eyes of course. And he's really looking at me!
Do I wake up and look at him too? Nah, that's too weird. I stayed like that for a couple of minutes and he's still staring. WHAT IN THE WORLD? He sighed and turned his head towards the window.

"Kim Mingyu... If you only knew." I heard him whisper. Wtf. What do I need to know? I decided to ask him later since it will be awkward if I suddenly "wake up" right now and shock everyone. I'm pissed. Well, not really angry but more like frustrated. What the hell did I do to him?

When we arrived, I immediately walked towards him and grabbed his shoulder. He looked startled and tried to shake off my hand. I held tighter and looked at him directly.

"What the hell did I do to you? Do you hate me that much? Why do you avoid me? I really want to talk to you, joke around with you and do the things we usually do, you know? And It kills me every time when you ignore me as if I don't exist!" I gasped for air after ranting. He stood there just looking at me with his blank look.
"And now, you're not even answering me! Are you just gonna stand their while I look like a fool here?" Again, I gasped for air. Gosh, he's so insensitive.

He stayed silent and for a while and then his mouth formed a smile. No, a grin. Then, he started laughing hysterically while clapping his hands. I feel offended, seriously. And confused too.

"You're laughing... You're freakin' laughing. What the hell?! I'm trying to be honest here and you're laughing? I can't believe you."
"My gosh..." He said while laughing his ass off. "You are so cute hahahaha" and he continued laughing while I just stood there, confused af.
"I'm not angry." He said while wiping a tear. He stopped laughing and then started laughing again but this time he was joined by some familiar voices. I looked behind me and saw our other members laughing.

"Wha-? Wait. I'm confused." I said while holding my hands up.

"Mingyu-ah, I'm sorry but we did a little prank." Coups-hyung said while laughing.
"Sorry Mingyu~" they said one after another. Okaaaaay, I still don't get it.

I looked at Wonwoo-hyung and he smiled. "Sorry Mingyu. We played a little prank on you. When you were out with your family, they said they were bored and decided to play a prank on you. And I just agreed to do it because I'm kinda curious of what you're reaction's gonna be. You really like me huh? Gomawo~" He said and then started laughing again. I felt my face flush.

"Gosh. I hate you. All of you." I said while smiling. They just laughed and I laughed too. You may think it's weird but It's not. It should be though. I'm supposed to be angry but I'm not. In fact, I'm happy. Happy, because of the thought that there was no wall after all and because of the fact that he cares. I felt like an idiot for over-analyzing things.

After they finished laughing their asses off, we proceeded to the building. I was walking beside Wonwoo-hyung and he's still laughing.

"Gosh Mingyu. You looked like an idiot." He said while cracking a grin.
"I'm only an idiot for you, ya'know?" I mumbled and smiled.
"What?" He asked curiously.
"Nothing..." I said and walked faster.
"He- hey!" He said while trying to catch up to me.