Bad Boy's Baby's Mama

Chapter Nine: Breaking Up

I unlock the door to my apartment and push it open. It is a little past eight, I hope my kids are still awake, when my nerves are in the state that they are the best remedy is spending time with them. But when I looked in the living room the only person in there was Jason. And he does not look happy. He looks at me accusingly with his beautiful blue eyes which a few weeks ago could have brought me to my knees, now they have as much power over me as a stranger on the streets would.

"Do you have any idea what time it is?" He asks and I feel as if I'm a teenager who was out a few hours past curfew and got caught trying to sneak in. I glance at my phone before replying.

"Eight thirteen." I say trying to keep the sarcasm out of my voice, but failing.

"Yes and you have been gone with that- that... person since ten thirty this morning." He says not even able to say Isaac. It takes all I can not to roll my eyes at how childish he's being.

"Yes, buying stuff for the kids and putting cribs together, nothing else. Trust me It wasn't fun." That was a lie. I did have fun.

"Yeah and you left me here alone to watch them." He says bitterly. I feel a jolt of anger through me. He should know mentioning my kids in fights is dangerous waters.

"You have never had a problem watching them before. You used to have fun watching them. What changed?" I ask putting my hands on my hips and watching him stare just as spitefully back.

"When I used to have to watch them, you were at work or running errands, never off with their father doing god knows what.

"Setting up cribs, Jay. That's what. Why are you being so immature?" I ask throwing my hands in the air in frustration.

"Because you are sneaking around with a past love interest and all the while I'm watching your guys kids. I am no their babysitter you know. It's insulting while you're out fucking some guy you're having me watch your damn kids!" He says getting to his feet.

"It's insulting how little you trust me!" I shoot back at him.

"Why should I?" He asks. I can sense both of our angers rising and I know the outcome won't be pretty.

"Because you love me, and we're in a committed relationship!" I say back at him making him huff in response.

"I'm beginning to think the only one committed to this relationship is me!"

"We both know that isn't true." I say softer and quieter this time.

"Fine look me in the eye and say you don't have feelings for him." He says his voice softer too. Silence.

"Get out." He says after thirty seconds or so of me standing watching him with and open mouth and tears in my eyes.

"But Jason I-" I begin to say before he cuts me off.

"Out." He says louder this time.

"Where am I supposed to go? It's late and- my kids I-" He shakes his head.

"Not my problem. Get your kids, get what you need for the night and get out. You can come get the rest of your stuff tomorrow." He says not meeting my eye.

"Jay." I whisper pleading with him.

"I'm sorry Court, I know you have feelings for him and I can't be with you if you do. I still love you and always will, but I need my space for now." He says gentler.

"Okay." I whisper and go to my kids bedroom and begin packing all their necessity's before waking them up. I pack silently and occasionally look at their small peaceful faces that have no clue what's going on. I also think about their father and that night three years ago. I think about what my life would've been like if Isaac Owens had never gone to that party. Maybe me and Jason would've met without me having two kids I needed to worry about. Maybe me and Isaac would've still bumped into each other at the grocery store and we would've asked each other how we've been and we would've went back to our lives. He would've returned to Florida and continued as a DJ and I would've went back to Jason and we would still be together. Maybe in a few years me and Jason would have babies. Maybe we would have a little blue eyed girl with brown hair and a hooked nose. That didn't happen though. I had Isaac's babies and I wouldn't change that for the world. When I finally have all of our stuff I go out into the living room where Jason is sitting.

"Could you help me get all of our stuff to my car?" I ask embarrassed, but I still need help.

"Yeah that's fine." He says and comes to the twins room and helps me collect all of our things as he brings it down to my car I pick up Bella who slowly opens her eyes and looks at me tiredly.

"Hey baby girl." I murmur as she watches me. I adjust her so I have enough room in my arms to carry both her and Jackson. I pick him up next and hold the two sleepy kids in my arms. I kiss both their cheeks and head for the door.

"Where we goin momma?" Bella asks rubbing her eyes.

"We are going to visit your dad." I tell her and she smiles through her sleep and rests her head on my shoulder. I walk out to my car where Jason is standing leaning against the side of it. I open the door and get my kids situated in their seats before straightening out. I feel tears prick the back of my eyes as I watch Jason who is standing uncomfortably.

"Bye I guess." I say through my tears.

"Bye Court." He says pulling me into a hug. I hug back before wiping the tears from my eyes and kissing him on the cheek. I get into my car and drive the way I had just came hours before. I could drive to my moms, but I feel the days events weighting on my eyes and I don't want to risk driving this tired with my kids in the car. I just hope Isaac won't mind.  

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