finding my first love

CHAPTER 1

Nova p.o.v

" nova get your stupid ass up now and get this baby" I heard my mom yell from the bottom of the stairs

after about 5 minutes of me just sitting there I heard my step dad run up the stairs , and before I could even move I felt a powerful smack against my face.

" I know you heard your mom bitch"! he yelled as he punched me in my face

get off of me please I screeched this was a typical morning in my house either when liberty was sick or just fussy causing my mom or step dad to wake up

finally he got off of me causing me to be able to breath again I stood up looking at the new bruises and comparing them to the old ones they made me feel so ugly I couldn't even look in the mirror without crying.

I sat there for a few minutes until I heard liberty she was my everything, my world , the only person I had

hi Libby baby I cooed as I picked her up and showered her with kisses she was so beautiful adorable big grey eyes , long curly hair , and cute little ears with tiny diamond ear rings that her dad bought her

her dad was legend Andrews my first love , my life the boy that took my virginity at 14

when I got pregnant we were both so excited to have a family because that was something we both never had before but a week after I had liberty legend was killed in a drive by shooting that was the day my life fell apart , my world ended legend distracted me from everything going on in my personal life and after he died it brought me back to reality

it made me sick to my stomach to think about Libby growing up without a daddy like I did

all we have left to remember him is they custom chains he got for Libby and I that said otf ( only the family) with a picture of legend , Libby and I.

I reminisce on all the memories we shared together "ouch legend id yelled as he tickled me"

" I love you to the moon and back nova and that'll never change " his voice echoed through my mind and made me have goose bumps

I went to my closet and got Libby a pretty teal dress with a matching bow I didn't have many clothes but Libby had tons that people had gave and donated to us

I threw on a pair of dingy joggers, a plain white shirt and threw my hair in a high bun this was my signature look and even tho it was basic and ugly as long as liberty was happy and healthy that's all that mattered to be

I took libby downstairs and put her in her swing so she could take a nap before daycare

I opened the fridge that was empty as usual I hadn't ate in 2 days every penny I collected went to libby and making sure that she eats everyday and had everything she needed

I dropped liberty off at daycare than got on the bus for school which wasn't to far from the day care

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when I finally got to school my best friend Jayla was waiting on me with popeyes I was so thankful for her she was my one and only friends and she knew all about my mom , daughter and legend

she had everything I never had a dad , a mom who wasn't hooked on drugs, a family who love her , nice clothes and shoes and importantly she had her first love still in her life I wasn't jealous of Jayla I was jealous of her care free life that she lived

" so did you hear about that big ass block party"? Jayla asked

yeah I said stuffing each peace of chicken in my mouth like I was scared it would be taken away from me I hadn't ate in two days so this was like heaven for me to finally get a meal