i was happy
and i wanted to share
that happiness
but i guess
it wasn't something
to have or share
because i am then
selfish, self centered
i shouldn't be proud
of such words because
it is such a trivial thing
to be happy and have pride
for the first time in years
i am unable to be happy
whenever you are around
don't say your hurt
you know and i know
so until you leave i'll try
not to bother you with a smile
or any words at all....
YOU ARE READING
writings
Randomi don't know if your quite done with me yet but i know i am and it's killing me how much i can't stand looking in the mirror to see myself it's not a lie it's not for attention this hate this indifference i hate it but i hate myself more