i want to make something beautiful
not be but make and i fear
i will never make anything more
than trouble and disgust
i am not what anyone sees
i am only what i try to be
and i'll have to remember that
but for now i'll say i'm bad and horrible
because that's what im feeling
at this moment and i doubt it will go away
i need to make something beautiful
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Randomi don't know if your quite done with me yet but i know i am and it's killing me how much i can't stand looking in the mirror to see myself it's not a lie it's not for attention this hate this indifference i hate it but i hate myself more