Bi Girl in a Straight World

*sigh*

Look guys, I've never been one for feelings, as a matter of fact, I fucking hate them. However, I really need to vent, and this seems like a good place to do it. I could never say any of this girly bullshit to the person its directed towards, so, here it goes:

I'm sick and fucking tired of playing games. If you want to be with me, say so. If you don't, then stop holding my hand, carrying my stuff, asking me to sit on your lap and cuddle with you, and fucking STOP telling people we're an item! I mean what the fuck?!? I've been crazy into you since the beginning of junior year, I'd even say that I love you, and all you do is play games. Do you have any idea how bad that fucking hurts? I love you and you don't give a shit. Then people tell me that you like me and its my fault we aren't together, but they don't understand. Every time I see you, it both hurts and elates me. You make me want to rip my heart out and throw it. I mean, what is the purpose of what you're doing to me? I say I don't want a relationship, but what I really mean is I don't want one with anybody but YOU. Why can't you see that? Look,I'm into you, and I just want to know, do we have a chance?