Everday's a Journey

Chapter 3

Walking into that hospital was probably the hardest thing that I've ever had to do. I don't know how I did it but I somehow, willed my legs to start functioning again. As soon as I stepped into the hospital foyer, I almost ran up to the woman sitting at the help center. I came to a jerky stop right in front of the receptionist and asked her, “Hello, I was wondering what room Adain James Connor is in?" Without even glance in my direction the woman proceeded to type his name into the computer. Her voice soon rang through my ears telling me that the ICU was on the first floor and he was in room 10. I muttered a quick "thank you", and took off toward the elevators. While on my way to the elevator, I passed the gift shop on my left. Thirty seconds later, I was face to face with the elevator doors. I pressed the cold metal up button, and waited for the elevators to come down. The all too familiar ding of the elevator alerted me that the elevator was here and ready for me. I waited for the crowd of people to get off the elevator and then stepped into the metal box.

As soon as I was in, I pressed the number one button. I leaned back and pressed my back to the cold metal of the elevator. I was the only person in the elevator, I was thankful for these ten seconds of quite. I was so zoned out to the point that I didn't notice that the elevator had stopped moving, and the door had already opened. I swiftly moved out of the elevator, and into the long corridor of the hospitals first floor. I felt a flutter in my heart, I was finally here. After all this time I was finally here. I went to the first floors visitors’ desk and meet a young nurse with short brown hair and blue scrubbies on. As soon as I got to the desk she lifted her head and greeted me with a bright smile, the genuine smile I've gotten since I got to New York. I greeted her back with a smile and asked " Can you help me find room 10?I'm looking for an Adian Connor." The woman's eyes widened slightly at what I said, and said " Why yes, if you go to your left then turn at the first right room number 10 is a t the end of that hall on your right." All the while her eyes still held the smile that I had seen on her face. "Thank you" I replied back and before leaving shot another smile in her direction.

I headed in the same direction that the nurse told me to head in. I arrived at the end of the hall and saw the number 10 right above the door. My heart began to beat a mile per minute in my chest and I started to find it hard to breath. My bottom lip started to tremble and all my thoughts were jumbled. All I could do was extend both of my arms out and put than on both sides of the door frame and put my head in between both of my arms. As I started to take in deep breaths and expel them I found that my thoughts were coming back to me and my heart was slowing down. I took both my arm down from the door frame and knock on the door. I bit my bottom lip in anticipation and looked down toward the floor. The next thing I knew the door flew up and I was greeted by Adian's mom. His mom is the sweetest people I've had the pleasure of meeting, she was also one of the most well groomed people that I've meet. This woman that stood in front of me was not the Mrs. Connor I knew. All I can say is that Mrs. Connor looked like how I felt.

I was in the entrance of the door for about a minute before Mrs. Conner said "Oh thank goodness! Olivia you're finally here! I've been trying to contact you for hours on end." This was true, Mrs. Connor had been trying to contact me. In fact I had 40 missed calls from her, I don't know why I couldn't just pick up the damn phone and answer her. I just couldn't bring myself to it. "Olivia dear please do come in" Mrs. Connor told me. "Ok Mrs. Con-" before I could finish what I was saying, she cut me off "Olivia, what have I told you about calling me Mrs. Connor, please just call me Emma." I was whisked inside the room and before I could do or say anything else I was wrapped in a bear hug. I then felt another pair of arms sling around me, these arms were a lot stronger then the last pair. I didn't have to look up to know that Mr. and Mrs. Connor were the people who had me in their embrace. Soon after the room was filled with the sound of sobbing and sniffling. I couldn't help but break down too. We cried together for a good 4 minutes, we don't have to speak words in order to feel each other’s pain. It was something we just understood.

I had yet to set site on Adian, and I didn't know how I was going to cope with actually looking at Adian. All three of us were gathered in the somewhat foyer of the hospital room. Adian's parents had gotten the best room on the first floor, it wasn't like they couldn't afford it. Adian's dad was a very well known lawyer in New York City. Now the only thing that was now blocking me from seeing my Adain was the wall. I wiped away all the excess tears from my face; took a deep breath and looked Emma strait in the eyes. It seemed that Emma knew exactly what I was thinking and with that she said "Go honey, he need you right now, and you need him just as much as he needs you. We'll be back in a few hours." I somberly shook my head on agreement and with that we parted with whispered good byes and another round of hugs. The door shut tight and I was left alone in the quite room with nothing but the steady beeping of the heart machine. A machine that was telling me that Adian... Adian was alive.

I wasn't quite sure if I was ready for this, I started to feel my eyes fill with tears but quickly blinked them away. Once again I reasoned with myself that I had to be ready for this. I started to take one slow step toward the center of the room, now all I could see was Adian's feet that were covered up with the thin hospital blanket. I took another slow step and could now see Adian's torso. I took a deep breath, closed my eyes and let my legs do the rest of the work. When I opened my eyes I was face to face with the love of my life. My once flawless Adain was now covered in several cuts and bruises. His face oddly enough didn't that have many cuts, but his arms were a whole different story. I could only imagine what his back or stomach would look like. I stood in the middle of the hospital room like a statue, all I could do was look. I wasn't sad or terrified any more, I just need to know if he would be ok. That's all I needed to know.

I mindlessly started walking toward the side of the bed. My eyes were roaming Adian's face; searching. Searching to see if there was anything else that could be possibly wrong with him. I then  reached out my shaking hand out toward his cheek and gently began to stroke his cheek, all the while etching his face into my memory. I then searched behind me for a chair that I could pull up to the side of the bed. After finding what I was looking for, I clumsily dragged it to the side of the bed and plopped down almost falling out in the process. I once again moved my hand back toward his body, this time guiding it toward it toward his hand. I clasped my hand around his and leaned forward so that my head was rested closed to his. I then whispered "Everything's ok now Adian, I'm here. I'm here. I love you." I continued to whisper sweet nothings to him, until I started to feel my eyes get incredibly heavy. Just like that I was out, but not too long before a swift knock on the door woke me up.

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Yay! the third chapter is finally up after two weeks. What do you guys thinks about? I got a new book cover, finally something that doesn't burn my eyes from looking at it. I would really like your opinion on the book cover... like it? hate it? if so tell me what you like about it. I f you hate it tell me what YOU would wish to see.