bff to marriage

11th grade

Chapter 2

schools year 11th grade
Since last year alick has not talked to me and I'm starting to wonder if it was because I didn't say anything or if I didn't feel the same way but it just hurts to see him now because he doesn't say anything to me he just looks down or walks away and I don't know if he is embarrassed or just hurt and sad but when I look in his eyes I can see pain but I don't know if I cause and he can't hide from me forever because we have chemistry together and it's awkward because I sit right next to him and were partners so I starting to think it's going to be strictly school work because he will try to avoid the conversation that I'm going to try to have with him.-in chemistry-so I was right he did try to avoid the conversation but I bugged him about it and so he crack and said calmly "I'm not mad at you or sad I'm disappointed because I confessed to you and you just stood there and didn't say anything or do anything so I left." I replied skeptically "what was I supposed to do I was still stuck on what you said because I was shocked you said that but I felt the same way but you left before I could say something" and he said "well then why didn't you say that before" I said "idk" the teacher cut us off and put us on the spot by saying "you guys are obviously not talking about the work so would you like to share with the class" we just shook our heads no. when class was over he walked me to class the hugged me and left and I was just waiting to go home and we walked home too. When we got home before he left he gave me a kiss on my forehead. I had to talk to my mom because I wasn't understanding what just happened because my empathy was off and I don't know how I should feel for instance if I should be happy, overly excited or weird about it so I had a talk with my mom and she explained it to me and said "at this age you want to experience stuff" and I knew where she was going but I stopped "THE TALK" from happening because I know how awkward that gets so, I just left to go to my room ate dinner and laid in my bed....

the love faze
that night I thought about what he said and I couldn't sleep.so the next morning I go over to his house unannounced and I go up to his room and when he saw me he walked towards me and kissed me and I didn't stop him because a part of me wanted to kiss him back but I also wanted to wait. He said that is fine, he'll wait and I said "thank you and I told him I changed myself from the first time I met him and when you love someone that's the person who forces you to be the best version of you and you make me do that so thank you." So I laid on his bed and we planned out our future for when I'm ready. so we went to my room at we were talking to each other about embarrassing moments and he once peed himself in his 1st grade class and he didn't want me to laugh and I didn't but in my head I was...I just kissed him and said I wouldn't laugh even if you told me too then I kissed him again. Than dinner came and went to eat and mom did not eat with us because she figured whatever we want to talk about we wouldn't talk about while she's there and she kind of right because that would be awkward. We had a great conversation at dinner and we just played a game "its call if I win you confess" and if I win chess he confesses one of his secrets. Well he won so we didn't come up with one for me so he moved the chess board and kissed me-so romantic-but of course we had school so he eventually left and all I could think about is if he was sleeping right next to me but he wasn't so I had to remind myself of all the time before I met him, how I fell asleep without him there so I could sleep better.

Next Level
Today I woke up in a not so good mood and alick was waiting by my door for me and I suddenly became happy again because to see an) adorable happy face can brighten my morning especially alicks and class flew by because alick was in most of them. Lunchtime came around and alick and I talked about our feelings once again but yet again were no not together and said we could be so I responded so sarcastically are you u asking me out and he said yeah I guess I am and I said well it's going to be kind of the same because you are the person I'm with all day. It's April now and we have 1 month left of school and homecoming is coming up soon and we know that most of the school thinks we're the cutest couple and how they fancy our pure hearts. But we want to show the school that winning doesn't mean were more superior but it would be nice to win something... it's Friday and homecoming is at 9:00 and I'm so excited but nervous at the same time and I told alick to meet me there and I was getting dressed and ready and it's 9:30 so I'm late but I know everyone is there so I'll have a grand entrance and when I got there everyone was inside and when I walked in the hallway people watched me and when I walked into the auditorium it was like the world stop for a second and stared at me but I did not care I was looking for alick and I then stopped him and our eyes met each other and I do really believed that my heart stopped for a second but then life carried on and my boyfriend came over and told me how amazing I looked and we went to the dance floor and at 10:20 the called our homecoming king and queen and Cinderella dress(that would be me in a blue puffy long gown)won for queen and I knew I would probably win but I wasn't sure but I kept It to myself and my 3 piece suite of a boyfriend won king which he was destined to win because everyone likes him.