Guilty Pleasure.

Smashing Glass.

While the kids were at school Ronnie and I decided to go see Chris. After that I was meeting up with Stephanie, Jess and Catherina. We walked in the house which was unsurprislingly unlocked. The kitchen was how I left it, messy with over cooked meat in it. It's been like two months, so thats moldy as hell. Glass stilled covered the floor from my rampage that I don't regret. I heard Ronnie whistle lowly. "Remind me to never piss you off!" He laughed. I poked my tongue out and started to walk upstrairs where music was loudly blaring from. I easily found the bedroom and shoved open the door. The room was covered with broken lamp bits, clothing, and other bedroom stuff scattered around. I looked up to see the bed occupied by Chris with a hand shoved down his boxers and the other thrown across the bed, light snores escaping from him. Ronnie choked down laughter but I didn;t even try, I stood in the door way giggling. "Quite a man you have there Lola!" Ronnie prasied. I shoved him lightly and looked back at Chris, disgust filling me. Ronnie started calling out to Chris making him groan. "Chris, wake up." I shouted. His eyes widen. "L-Lola, y-you came back!" He cried, sitting up. His face flushed a bright red and he pulled his hand out. "Erm, sorry bout that." He said laughing awkwardly. Ronnie smirked at him and Chris glared. "Why is he here?" Chris asked, annoyed. I looked up at Ronnie who was grinning aat me. "Because I wasn't going to come if he wasnt here." I snapped. He looked down and sighed. Ronnie whispered he was goning to wait downstairs and with a final glare at Fronz he was gone. I let out a breath and walked across the room and picked up one of the unturned chairs and dragged it over. I sat down hesiantly. "Lola I'm so sorry I-" I cut him off. "Why would you do that, how could you do that?" I whispered. He played with his fingers, not looking at me. "I, I don't know Lola... I wasn't thinking, I had been drinking and...stuff." He mumbled. I shook my head. "Thats no excuse, I drink when I go out with Jess, I don't get cheat and get pregnant!" I hissed. He put his head in his hands and shook his head. "I don't think we should be together." I choked out. His head shot up. "You dont mean that!" He cried. I nodded, my vision going blurry from the tears. "I do, I mean it ahundred percent." I said as confidently as I could. Tears were now spilling down both our cheeks. "Please don't leave me, I'll do anything!" He pleaded. "I'll stop drinking, I-I'll quit the band, Lola please!" He begged. I stood up and glared. "Stop, just stop making me feel like this is the wrong choice!" I screamed. He looked up, his lower lip trembling. "But it is, your breaking our family apart." He yelled. I scoffed, running my arm across my face to rid myself of tears. "No, this was your fault, not mine." I hissed. He threw his arms up and sighed. "I made a mistake, I'm sorry!" He groaned. I screamed and ran my hands through my hair. "That, that was not a mistake! It was so much worse!" I cried. He shook his head. "What about the kids?" He questioned, looking tired. I flopped back in my seat, Seb wouldn't want to stay with him without me, Blaise hates me so he' d go with him but Ahron... I don't know about him. "We'll let the court decided. Blaise will obviously go with you or back to Victoria." I said, disgust in my tone when I said her name. He looked in my eyes, probably looking to see if I was serious. I was. Ronnie came back up, looking awkward. "You ready to go, we gotta get Willow then go meet with your friends." He murmured. Chris looked at him, hatred filling his beautiful blue eyes. "This is your fault, you're the reason she's leaving me!" He snarled. Ronnie laughed humourlessly. "My fault, I don't see how that's possible." he scoffed. I groaned in embarrassment. "You came here when I wqs on tour, you made a move, I knew it!" He breathed out, sounding proud. "And you, your leaving me for him?" He asked, amazed. I looked at Ronnie who was giggling. I looked back at Chris and rolled my eyes. "What an imagination you have." I giggled. He glared at me, annoyed. I stood up to leave only to have Chris grab my arm. "You can't leave me, I don't want to be alone..." He wheezed out, tears once more filling up his eyes. I shook him off and grabbed Ronnies hand and dragged him behind me as I ran out the house.

*** Chris's POV ***

Why must I be such an idiot? I gripped my hair and pulled at it, screaming. I single handly just lost the love of my life and two of my kids. I stood up and decided to shower and fix y um... problem.