Guilty Pleasure.

And you will never know

"Mommy!" Ahren squealed, jumping into my arms. "Oh, sweetie, my little baby boy." I cooed, snuggling into the crook of his neck. He wrapped his thin arms around my neck and I felt his fraigle body bein to shake as he sobbed. I rubbed his back and kissed his neck. "It's okay, Mummy's here now." I mumbled. He pulled away and grinned. "Are you staying?" He asked, gripping my hand. I bit my lip. How to break it to him. I smiled sadly. "No, no I'm not. I still have some more things to do." I explained. He frowned, taking in what I said. "So, you leaving?" He asked slowly. I bit my lip. "Not forever, just a bit longer." I said quickly. He shook his head. "I'm coming." He said stubbornly. I opened my mouth to answer but I was cut off. "Mum, you're here!" Seb cried, jumping into my arms. Ahron stood stubornly beside me. "I've missed you so much." He mumbled. I ran my hand through his blonde hair. "I've missed you more." I whispered. I pulled away and wiped his tears and kissed his forehead, usually he'd squirm and whine but today he cried as I did it. "Please don't leave me." He begged. I felt my eyes burn and the lump in my throat form. "I'm so sorry." I sighed. I looked around and smiled, grabbing Ahron's hand and pulling him closer. "I have a surprise for you two." I grinned. They bothed raised their eyebrows. "Is it a toy?" Ahron asked excitedly. I shook my head. "Even better! A new baby brother....Or sister." I chirped. Arhon squealed, clapping his hands but Seb looked confused. "But, mum? We won't be able to see it..." He muttered. I rolled my eyes. "Of course you will, I'll make it work." I winked. He rolled his eyes just like I did and then pulled me into a hug. "Can't you come back?" A voice asked. I looked up and my eyes widen, Blaise? Seb moved away and look at his hole covered sneakers. "I- I mean, not that I want you back. Dad is a jerk without you." He stuttered. I grinned and pulled him into a hug. "I know you miss me!" I sang, ruffling his hair. He groaned and wrapped his arms around me. "Lola, I was thinking maybe- Oh shit, sorry." Jess laughed, turning away. "Family moment."

"I think wanna have a little change." I said, looking at myself. Jess raised an eye and slammed the pot lid down. "What sort of change?" She asked. I shrugged pulling at my hair. "Maybe fix my hair, get some tattoos?" I mumbled. She raised an eyebrow. "More?" She groaned. I scoffed, I barely have any... compaired to her. I have a few on my back and like three on my arms. She eyed me up and nodded. "Maybe after little child is born?" She suggested. I agreed, but I'm getting my hair fixed. She sat beside me and grinned. "Kalan's coming back!" She squealed. I frowned. "You're taking him back?" I asked, a bit annoyed. She rolled her eyes and walked back to the stove. "Of course. I love him." She said in a 'duh' tone. I sighed, tipping my head back and laughed. "God you're an idiot." I laughed humourly. She looked at me surprised. "Me? An idiot? Lola, what the fuck?" She gaped. I stood up, shaking my head. "You are just, ugh!" I grunted, annoyed. What the fuck is wrong with her? Letting him back after he leaves for almost a fucking month! I gripped at my hair and walked to her room and grabbed my shit, storming out. "Lola, what the hell? WHere are you going?" She called, chasing me. "You clearly don't need me, and besides, I don't want to be fucking near you two." I sneered. She frowned and opened the mouth to speak. I spun back towards my car and flipped her off. I slammed the door started it up and backed the car out, all while I stilled flipped the bird at her. "Fucking twat!" I screamed as I sped down the street. Honestly, I don't know where I was going. I wasn't ready to face Ronnie, I felt guilty. I didn't want to see Steph, again, feeling guilty. Jess is being an idiot, Sean is travelling for a bit with Alex. Alone. That's what I am. My phone vibrated and I yanked it out my ass pocket.

Asstit- Need u 2 bbysit hve plans

Me- Learn english.

Asstit- I need you to babysit I have plans.

Me- Better. When?

Asstit- Now.

Me- Kay, on my way.

I threw my phone and pressed on the gas, speeding even more. I got to the hoouse in no time. I parked on the curb and glared at the car as I walked up the drive way. Not Fronz's. I knocked lightly and shifted my weight, I hate being pregnant. The door swung open and Fronz stood there grinning. "That was quick." He laughed. I shrugged and shoved past him, looking around. He cleaned up, fixed all the photos I smashed, cleaned the molding food and yes. I sighed and spun around and squeaked, close. "Thanks for doing this." He breathed. I looked down and shrugged. Hide the blush. "Oh, it's no problem. I'll do whatever it takes to see my boys." I said, looking up smiling. He nodded and looked around quickly before he presserd his lips to mine, only quickly. He pulled away, smirked and walked off. Only theen did I realise his hair was soaking and he only had a towel wrapped around his waist. Dear God. "Mommy's here!" Ahron squealed. I shook my head, snap out of it. "Hey dude!" I cheered, kissing his soft brown hair. I grabbed his hand and led him to the kitchen. "You cooking?" He asked looking up. I pursed my lips. "Depends if your dad got food." I answered, opening cupboards. Eventually I found spagetti and tomatos and some herbs, fuck yeah. I passed the tomatos to Ahron and then carried the rest to the bench. "Hey, we're going now." Fronz called. We? "Oh, alright. Bye." I shouted. The door slammed and one car started, not two. Hmmmmm. Shrugging I turned back to my job. "Let's get started, eh?" I grinned. Ahron nodded. "Wait! I need something!" He cried running off. I Stood, leaning against the bench, waiting. He came back almost ten minutes later wearing a floppy crisp white chef hat and a paint stained apron. "Ta-Da!" He giggled. I laughed, shaking my head. "You could go pro with that outfit." I encouraged. His eyes widen. "Really?" He squealed. I nodded, turning to the cutting board. "I need you to get me two pots, alright?" I ordered. He nodded and started loudly going through every draw.

"Boys, dinner!" I hollered. Ahron was already seated in his usual spot. Thundering steps told me the two older boys were coming. Blaise sat beside Ahron and Seb across from Blaise. I set plates of pasta in front of them, grated cheese in the middle of the table along with some Coke. I sat in my spot, at the end closets to Ahron. I looked around the table and my brownish eyes stopped on Sebastian. His growing out his hair, I'm so proud!

"Mom, look!" Ahren giggled. I looked up and laughed. His face was bright red, sauce. The kids all ran off after dinner leaving me to clean up. I used my awesome balencing skills (I have none) and took two plates at a time. "Uh, Lola?" Blaise mumbled. I spun around and smiled. "Hey dude, whats up?" I questioned. He sat on the bench and fiddled with his shorts. "Nothing." He mumbled. I nodded slowly and went back to washing. "So, where's your dad gone?" I asked, drying a plate. He looked at me and shrugged. "With mom." He grunted. I raised an eyebrow, Victoria? "Dad's been depressed and he can't raises us properly, he needs help." He sighed. "I don't want her to, I want you to." He whispered. I bit my lip, HE WANTS ME TO RAISE HIM?! Oh my lord, don't cry Lola, hold them tears in! I set down the rags and dish and pulled him into a hug. "I wish sweety." I mumbled. He burried his face into my neck. "I need to tell you something." He said in a soft voice. He pulled away and looked around. "Dad is the dad of her baby." He huffed. My eyes widen. "Wait what?"