All I Got

Letting Go

Why do we 'love'
To get hurt and broken
Do we not have enough?
Love is just another token

To love is to want
Want someone that's not there
We want to be held and kissed
We just want someone who cares

"If you love something let it go"
Bullshit.. all of it
You let something like that go?
You don't try you'll never know.

Keep him forever
I realize I should have
Now I'm alone and I suffer
I just want him back.

But love is stupid
It's wrong and ignorant
I don't know why
But even so.. I still want it

We all want what we can't have
So I just tune out the world
Evidently I can't have love.
I'm nothing but a little girl

Just want to slowly die
17 years, nothing to say
Why can't I just let go and cry?
Just trying to get threw everyday

It's a struggle.
Living life like this
Nothing but pain
I'm in a blood red abyss

Just help me, Jesus!
No one ever listens to me
You come crying for help
But when I need some you leave.

I'm alone on the floor
Closed and locked the bathroom door
Nothing left to do but die
Leave me alone.. Let me cry

You were never here before
I just don't know anymore

I want to live
But then I don't
I try to give
But I just won't

You killed me everyday
Saw nothing but my mask
Didn't care if I was okay
Didn't bother to ask

I just smiled threw everything
No matter how fake it was
You believed me for some reason
And It was all. Because. Of love...

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