The Diary Of A Genderfluid Teen

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So I haven't written in a while. Which I'm sorry for. But, well, how can I put this... I'm having...issues? at the moment and i just am not really sure how to cope. Like I've missed a couple days of school and everything because of it. I don't really know what's wrong, honestly. I feel like shit. Everytime I seem to be okay something happens and fucks me up again. And honestly, I'm scared. I'm honestly fucking terrified of myself anymore and it makes me sick. It gets to the point where suicide has been contemplated, but I honestly don't think I would ever try it. I value life, but I hate living, as confusing as that is. And there's just so much shit falling on top of everything I'm already trying to deal with. My math teacher hates me, and said he would kick me out of his class if I didnt get a B average, which I guess he can do. My weight loss has failed and I gained like 7 pounds instead of losing it. All this on top just fucking sucks. Look, guys, I didnt make this to bitch about my life. I'm sorry. Just skip this chapter, okay? I love you guys and thanks for reading this far.