Dream: The Story of Her

Chapter Five

Leaving the house scared me. I was waiting for my mom to call my aunt and be like just kidding. That phone call never came so I went to my aunts house. My younger cousins were excited I was the but it wasn't a reason to be excited. I didn't know if I could ever go home. I didn't know how I was going to to raise my kid on a part time job and only about a thousand bucks in my savings. I was hurt and I couldn't show it because my cousins needed to see me strong. So I smiled, played board games, and pretended that life was the same because it was true the last time they saw me. I borrowed my cousins computer and told Tonya that I was kicked out and would text her as soon as I could. When I went to sleep that night I thought that I was going to fade away into nothing.

The next morning I woke up and felt numb. I still wanted to fade away. It hit me then that I was really alone. I didn't have anyone left. There was a knock on the room door I look up and see my uncle.

"You can't be sad its not about you any more. " 

"But I don't know anymore. " 

"Your going to have a baby." 

"I don't know how to do this." 

"Your going to have to learn. " 

I just nodded at him. I didn't want to have to learn I wanted to go home sleep in my bed and go out with my friends. I felt like life was over there was nothing left. I wasn't going to be aloud to be young to be eighteen. I was going to fall apart and there would be no one there when the pieces landed. I didn't know how to pick them up. All I wanted was someone to hold me.  

I went through most of the morning numb to everything around me. I ate, showered, and tried to move forward. The thing was that I didn't know how to. What was going to happen next? I was just there putting on a brave face for my cousins. I went on doing what I could to ignore the depths of sadness that wanted to consume me. I had never in my life felt like that. 

"Jaz come on your mom wants you to go home. Come on we'll go eat first. " 

"Ok" I got up  

I was afraid to go home. When I climbed into the car I thought my mom was going to go crazy on me when I got home. She wouldn't love me.  

When we got to the house there was an eerie silence in the house. When my mom saw me she didn't say a word she could hardly look at me. She didn't really see me not any more. I did the only thing I could do at that point I withdrew from the  world and didn't let anyone in.