Dream: The Story of Her

Chapter One

All I could think in November was please let my period come. I can’t be pregnant this can’t be happening. How am I going to tell my mom? How am I going to face the world? How did I let this happen? In November 2007 all I knew was I was a dead Puerto Rican walking and that was not something I was excited about.

“Jaz, what are you thinking?” I hear Marie ask while I’m staring at the sky.

“My periods late.”

“Oh god, are you kidding me?”

“No.” I look at her with tears in my eyes

“Hello ladies.” PJ says walking up

“Hello.”

“Jazmine what’s wrong?”

“My periods late.”

“You’re funny. You couldn’t have sex it’s just wrong your to innocent.”

“Looks can be deceiving.” I smirked

“How the hell did this happen?” PJ glares at me

“Well when a mommy and daddy love each other very…” I start to say

“Don’t be a smart ass.”

“Well you asked how it could happen I was trying to help explain it.”

“Don’t be Stupid Jaz what are you going to do?”

“I am going to cry and hope this is all a bad dream, maybe I’ll wake up from it any minute now.”

We set there looking at each other. Marie looking at me like she could slap me. She told me to stay away from Aaron every one told me to stay away from Aaron. What can I say the heart wants what the heart wants.

“Well what are you going to do?” Marie asked concerned

“I’m going to cry and try and think of what to tell my mom. “

“Oh god your parents will be pissed.”

“Oh they will be but it’s alright I’ll get past it.”

We walked into class staring at each other. This was my last year at Oak Mont High. What did I go and do I got pregnant but I could be wrong I mean I hadn’t tested. Maybe I was just stressed yeah that’s it I’m stressed. I sat there thinking god how am I going to tell Aaron that I’m pregnant well if I am. I held on to hope that possibly I wasn’t and I would be fine.

When the bell rang I walked and saw my best friend walk up to me Tonya. We had been through a lot in the last three years. It was good to know that she was there. I looked at her and smiled. She knew that something was wrong as soon as I looked at her.

“What did that Ass hole do now?”

“I might be with child.” I tried to smile as we walked

“What?”

“I might be with child.”

“No….”

“Yes…”

I walked knowing this was not going to be good. I spent the rest of the day thinking what kind of shit hole I have dug myself into.

When I got home I went to my room right away. I had to go to work tomorrow. I didn’t want to deal with anything. That’s when my phone rang, I looked and it was Aaron. Shit I don’t need to deal with him was all I could think. I mean it was bad enough I was a home wrecker now I was the girl who got knocked up by her lover. That’s all Aaron was my lover. He was the guy I slept with just to get my fix. He was my sexual heroine.

“Hello.” I say softly

“Want to hang out?”

“Can't busy.”

“Aww not even for a quickie?”

“Can't sorry some other time ok?”

“Alright, what’s wrong?”

“Nothing just really busy a bunch of family stuff you know.”

“Alright sure.”

“I’ll text you later or something ok.”

“Ok, Later.”

I didn’t want there to be a later not anymore. I had tried a million times to stop myself from going near Aaron but I couldn’t. I wanted him to be my everything. I wanted to be his everything. I couldn’t be though he was hooked on his girlfriend. I had so much guilt but I couldn’t stop myself. I had become a dirty hoe in my mind at that point and I guess there was no going back now. So I set down and cried.

Who was I going to tell in my family and how was I going to tell. I set there and called my brother he was old he messed up a few times before. I could tell him even though he was going to be pissed.

“Hello.” Joseph says

“Hi baldy.”

“Hey baby girl what’s going on?”

“I’m pregnant

“What the hell? You’re lying.”

“Nope I’m pretty sure I am I haven’t tested but I’m pretty sure.”

“Alright well find a way to get tested before mom finds out.”

“I don’t know how I’m going to do that.”

“Tell mom you’re in pain something.”

“I guess.”

“Are you ok?”

“No, I’m scared of what moms going to say or do if I am.”

“She’s going to be pissed but she loves you.”

“She won’t love me any more after I tell her.”

“No she will love you she'll be mad but there is nothing in moms heart but love for you Jaz.”

“I guess.”

“Watch. I’m going to call uncle and give him the heads up alright.”’

“Alright. Talk to you soon.”

“Love you.”

“Love you to.” I say hanging up my phone

That’s when the pain started. I had no idea what was going on. I thought thank god a cramp that means my period has come. I was wrong no period just pain. The pain didn’t go away for about a month.

I was getting ready for school when I fell because I was in so much pain I had no idea what to do. I had just turned eighteen and my mom was freaked out as hell.

“Jazmine what’s wrong with you?”

“I don’t know I’m in pain. It hurts so badly.”

“Come on were going to emergency.”

“Ok.” I say giving her my best tough girl face.

She helped me up and walked me to the car. I climbed in thinking pain, pain go away come again another day because I don’t really want to deal with this.

The pain never went away it just got bigger and stronger the more I tried to forget about it. I would never forget that pain.