To Love Again

Liv

"Mommy, we miss you na. When will you be back home?"

"Sorry, baby. Madami lang kasing dapat tapusin si Mommy dito sa office. Wag kang mag-alala, babawi ako sa inyo sa weekend."

"Promise?"

"I promise, love. Sige na, kailangan nang bumalik ni Mommy sa work. Mahal na mahal ko kayo ng kambal mo."

"We love you din Mommy. Bye!"

I sighed as I ended the call. As much as I want to spend time with my children, I'm stuck here in the office with a bunch of paperwork. Mahal na mahal ko ang mga anak ko, they're the only ones that are keeping me sane. Hindi ko alam ang gagawin ko pag mawawala sila. Sila nalang ang natitirang alaala ng pagmamahalan namin ni Wes.

It's been 5 years since we lost him. Plane crash. He was coming home from a business meeting in Singapore when the plane he was in encountered a critical system failure--the plane lost control and crashed at sea, killing all of its passengers.

Parang gumuho ang mundo ko noon, para akong nawalan nadin ng buhay. I lost the love of my life, the father of my children. Di ko alam kung ano ang gagawin ko, kung sino ang sisisihin. But, I had to remain strong, para sa mga anak ko. Ako nalang ang natitira sa kanila.

A tear escaped my eyes as I recalled back to the past. Kinuha ko yung picture frame na nasa ibabaw ng lamesa ko. Wedding picture namin ni Wesley.

"Bakit mo ba kasi ako iniwan? Miss na miss na kita." I hugged the frame tightly, wishing and praying that someday, everything will be alright.

"Vivienne, hija. How are you? Ang mga bata?" tanong ni Mama Helene, nanay ni Wes. She came to visit Papa Ramon dito sa office.

I currently work for the Zamora Group of Companies, or ZGC, one of the biggest companies in the nation. After Wes passed away, I took the notion to work. Ayoko namang naka-depend lang sa mga magulang at in-laws ko. I needed to make a living for my children. Mama and Papa were kind enough to offer me a position at ZCG, and from then, I made my way up.

"I'm okay Ma. Namimiss ka na ni Cassie and Oli." I replied.

"Hay naku. Miss na miss ko na ang mga batang yun. Pumunta kayo sa mansyon sa Sunday, farewell party ni Wallace."

Wallace is Wesley's youngest brother. He just graduated high school and he's going to attend college sa U.S., sa Cornell University in New York. Napakatalino ng batang yun. Valedictorian ba naman.

"Sige po, Ma. Aalis na pala si Wallace. I'm sure Wes would have been the proudest and happiest brother kung nabubuhay pa sya." Mama just smiled.

"I know, hija. Oh sya, aalis na ako, magla-lunch pa kami ni Ramon. See you on Sunday." she gave me a warm embrace before she left. 

"Mommy!!!!" salubong ng mga anak ko pagkapasok ko sa bahay. I gave them a big hug, namiss ko sila.

"How was school today?" Tanong ko as we headed towards our room so I can change out of my office clothes.