The Wolf Within

Chapter 10

Shea's Point of View********

The whole pack is in front of me. Actually I'm in front of the whole pack, then the Alpha comes out.

" Shea Mathews, you are guilty of the death of my daughter. You are the reason my daughter's beautiful life came to a quick ending. " Alpha Quincy say's.

My eyes are watering, I can't believe she's gone. All because of me. I wasn't able to protect her.

She is gone.

Gone, as in I will never see her again.

I will never hear her laugh again.

I will never see her smile.

" Your punishment, expulsion from all packs. You will be forever a rogue. " Alpha says.

" No, this can't be happening. This is all a bad dream. I need to wake up. " I say.

" Guards, take her. Take her to the silver wolfs. Let them deal with her rebellious acts. Now ! "

" Alpha, please? " I say tears coming to my eyes.

I hear a loud threatening growl from behind me. I turn around and see Jake.

" I reject you. " he says chuckling.

This pain I feel in my chest, unbearable. I feel as if I can't breathe. I fall to my knees.

Jake walks towards me, his canines out, he's going to kill me. And I am to weak from the rejection pain to fight back, is this what it's like to die?

" Beep! Beep! Beep! Beep! " Jake says.

" What the- "

I wake up, in a pool of sweat, my face wet from tears, and my shirt soaked. I'm burning up, my stomach hurts bad. Almost like it's on fire. I need a cold shower, yeah. That will fix this pain.

' She's not dead Shea, she is okay. Stop worrying so much before you kill your self. ' my wolf tells me.

' I know. It's hard. ' I say.

' I know, but Shea we need to see Jake. I really miss him. I can't go much longer without him, if we wait much longer we'll end up losing our bond. And you need to go ahead and mate. Let him mark you and mate you. ' my wolf keeps complaining about how much she misses Jake.

Don't get me wrong I miss him too, but Isabella is more important at the moment.

' Don't put our mate in last place, he is more important than any--' I cut my wolf off before she can finish. I've toned her out of my mind.

I remember when I first shifted, and started talking to my wolf. I ran in my parents room, in tears. Screaming mom, dad, I have gone crazy. I am talking to my wolf.

I had heard about it before, but I mean it's something hard to get used to. Imagine having this voice in your head, that constantly talks to you, or that will completely take over the body that you two share.

Exactly! It would be super creepy at first. But now, I'm completely used to her. She is actually really nice to talk to when I'm sad or hurting. Especially when she isn't nagging at me. I am pretty glad of the wolf I have.

In human form I have deep purple eyes that are lined with caramel. Just like my dad, his eyes are deep purple and his lining changes depending on his mood. My eyes change very rarely, either when I'm really mad, or when I'm in wolf form.

When they do change I can't feel it, but I can tell because the person I am with has a freaked look on their face. Whenever I'm mad my eyes change red, not a dull blood red, a neon red, that has a black lining.

Anyways after I practically drag myself out of bed, I go to the bathroom. I decide to take a shower first, and eat second. But at the thought of food my stomach immediately growls, man am I hungry.

Once I get in the shower I let the warm water trail down my back. I start singing, " It's been a while, I'm not who I was before. You look surprised your words don't burn me anymore. Been meaning to tell ya, but I guess it's clear to see. " I pauses and take a pool of water in my mouth, letting it overflow and pour out.

Then I start back, " Don't be mad, it's just a brand new kinda me. That ain't bad, I found a brand new kinda free. Careful with your ego, he's the one that we should blame. Had to grab my heart back, God knows something has to change. I thought that you'd be happy, I found the one thing I need. Why you mad? Its just a brand new kinda me. Never bad, I found a brand new kinda free, ooh. " I stop and lather some shampoo in my hair. " It took a long, long road to get here, It took a brave, brave girl to try. It took one to many excuses, and one to many lies. Don't be surprised, said you looked surprised, oooohhh. If you were a friend. " I pause and rinses out the conditioner from my hair.

" If I talk a little taller if I speak up when you're wrong. If I walk a little taller, I've been under you too long. If you noticed that I'm different, and don't take it personally. Don't be mad, it's just a brand new kinda me. And that ain't bad, I found a brand new kinda free. " I stop and turn off the water and wrap up in my towel.

Once I'm dressed I walk out of my room and head downstairs to the kitchen. I grab some chicken and a pan, then start cooking it. As the chicken is frying, I grab some noodles and put them in the boiling water.

Once everything is done cooking, I fix my plate like a gourmet chef would at a restaurant. I take my plate to the living room and get situated. I turn on Love & Basketball, and eat.

I decide to text Jake, ' Hey! How are you? I miss you like crazy. ' i say,

Within seconds, literally within seconds he replies. " I have been alright, I miss you so much. I don't understand how it's possible for me to fall in love this quick, but Shea, I love you. '

' I love you too, Jake. " I say back.