A Song for Ma Boy

Track 10

NP: If by Taeyeon of SNSD

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If i were to go

If i were to get close to you

HAHAHAHA. Is this some kind of a joke? If so, then it's not funny.

What would you think?

I don’t have the courage.

For the second time around. Why does it need to happen again? Tell me, what's wrong with me? Did I do something really bad that I need to suffer again? If this happened only once, maybe, I can say that it's just a mere coincidence. But for the second time?! Nah. Maybe, I'm cursed. 

If you were to go,

If you were to leave.

I don’t know how to send you away

It keeps hanging on my mind

Ang sakit. Ang sakit.. sakit. Ba't ganun? Kailangan ba talaga ganun? Wala naman akong ginawa ah. Di ko naman ginulo buhay niya. Tahimik lang naman akong nakatingin sa kanya. Ni hindi nga ako makalapit. Ang sakit isiping wala pa ngang nangyayari, mawawala na agad. 

I know i am a fool and can only watch you from afar

Your heart may look away from me…

Sa huling pagkakataon, humingi ako ng sign. Naniniwala kasi ako sa mga signs na iyan. At ilang beses ko na rin napatunayan sa sarili ko na kapani-paniwala rin ito. I asked for a sign kay God na sasagot sa isang tanong na bumabagabag sa akin ngayon. Hindi ko lubos maisip na mangyayari yun ng walang kahirap-hirap. Oo, masaya ako dahil kahit papano ay nasagot ang isang tanong na iyon. Ngunit ang masaklap, it will never ever be given justice. Hanggang dun na lang yun, hanggang sign na lang.

And so we could even become strangers

Just like a fool i can’t even say that i love you because …

Ah... siya pala.. siya pala ang dahilan kung bakit talaga tayo pwede. Napatunayan ko ng ako lang pala itong umasa. Masyado akong umasa na pwede tayo. Masyado akong naniwala sa intuitions ko. Masyado kong binigyan ng ibig-sabihin ang mga bagay-bagay na yun. At ngayon, masyado akong nasasaktan dahil masyado na kitang minahal.

We’re afraid the wait that comes upon us

After we meet will be painful and sad.

If you were to come

To come near me.

Panahon na siguro na talagang kalimutan ko na tong nararamdaman ko sa iyo. Ikaw na mismo ang nagpatunay na ako lang pala nahuhulog.  Ikaw na ang nagpamukha sa akin, I'm falling without you. Hindi naman ako masokista kaya titigilan ko na 'to. It's not worth it. My tears are damn too precious for this.

What would i do ?

I really don’t know

Because im like a fool.

Even though i know looking is all i can do

Siguro nga ngayon hindi pa. But I know, mawawala rin ito. I believe that time heals everything. Kasabay  ng paglipas ng panahon ay ang paglipas ng nararamdaman kong ito. At salamat na rin sa desisyong ginawa mo. That would help me. It would help me ease the pain that you've caused. Ang ironic noh? Ikaw na nga yung dahilan sa sakit na nararamdaman ko ngayon, ikaw rin pala yung papawi nito. And I want to thank you for that.

Your heart may look away from me

And so we could even become strangers

Thank you dahil di mo ginawang boring yung life ko. Binigyan mo ng excitement yung buong second semester ko. Thank you for being my inspiration throughout. For making me smile kahit maalala ko lang pagmumukha mong gwapo. Thank you for giving me those memories. They may not be significant to you but for me, I'll cherish all of those. For those memories will prove to me that, once, I loved someone like you, na naging parte ka pala ng buhay ko. Ang lahat ng alaalang iyon ang magsasabing masarap ma-inlove.

Just like a fool i can’t even say that i love you because….

We’re afraid the wait that comes upon us

Right now, maybe, I'm not yet ready to forget everything about you. You lang dahil wala namang Us. But in time, I know mawawala rin yan. Sana nga lang I have enough strength and courage to do this because I know it would be difficult. It's not easy, you know. At sana nga lang mapabilis na ang prosesong ito dahil ayoko ng umiyak...

gaya ng ginagawa ko ngayon.

After we meet will be painful and sad

Because i’m like a fool

Even though i can’t say i love you

We’re afraid the wait that comes upon us

 After we meet will be painful and sad.

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AN: Such a heartbreaking UD. Nakaka-hurt. Na-hurt rin ba kayo? If so... Pareho tayo. HAHAHAHA ^^ Last two chapters na lang. :D