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This is my first official edit of this chapter and so on...so if your a new reader then after this it gets horrible, like ew I wondered where my head was then...so again I recommend you reading from Chapter 17 - It All Changes...
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***********TRIGGER WARNING: CONTAINS SWEARING AND DISTURBING CONTENT NOT SUITABLE FOR YOUNGSTERS**********
Chapter 1
*Edited*
Life was hard at handing me lemons. It didn't consist of parties in college , making new friends , getting a new boyfriend , but mostly for me darkness ran through it almost like water.
It kept on going.
"Aria! Aria! Will you fuck*ing answer me dammit?!" Jake screamed from downstairs filling the air with his noise. I got up from the couch upstairs , running closely downstairs to see what he wanted then being pictured with what he was going to do to me today.
Something new , old , bring it!
"What do you want now?" I whispered rolling my eyes towards him , pursing my lips together at his mistaken sight of himself.
"Well , is it so hard for you to be nice at least!?" He mimicked in a small baby voice motioning his head to the side. Again! She cried again. All we could high hear now is the loud sobs of my daughter coming from her nursery and I looked at Jake , anger slowly building inside of him.
"I told you to shut her fuck*ing mouth up , am I talking to you in another language!?" Jake gritted his teeth together , watching his knuckles curl up with each other slowly turning pale.
"She's a child Jake , she can't calm herself down can she now!" I scoffed , turning my back away from him as I walked up the stairs again. Not even taking a step onto one I felt myself being grabbed back from my head and pulled into his grip of the crease of his shoulder almost being strangled.
"Now why would I let a pretty girl like you out of my sight?" He whispered slowly, each word hitting my ear in shock. The force that he used on me was unbearable, even if one hit or miss was made, I would still get hurt without doubt which gave him happiness and satisfaction.
"Jake, get your fuck*ing hands off me. Y-Your hurting me" I chocked moving my hands our if his grip and cupped his shoulders to push myself off.
"Well," He grunted tightening his grip pushing me far back against the wall. "I might as well just keep you like this." His breath whispered to me as it each time my face shivered against his touch.
"You are mine Aria, you are all mine. Your soft lips are mine, your body is. Everything is do you understand that?" I flinched as Jake caressed my cheeks with 'Love' and moved my head out of his gaze but without fail his fingers tilted my chin up and forced me to look at him.
"What do you want Jake? Weren't you satisfied enough last night?" I shot back at him glaring at him intensely but in return he mocked at my power in a hysterical laugh.
"Oh Aria, don't even fuck*ing try to have power over me," Jake gritted moving his face closer to me as the pressure he used on me tightened. "Because you'll know...I'LL always win sweetheart."
Immediately his hand pushed me to the next solid wall and without fail landed flat on my back with my head suddenly taking a large hit.
Next thing I know the throbbing pain increased on the temples of my head as I tried to use my hand for comfort as I ended up landing on the floor in distress.
"Stop it! Please your hurting me Jake. Please" I managed to mumble due to my pain but without a doubt I was his punching bag once more.
With another grunt pulled out no mercy was crossed upon his face and another kick emerged from him and hit my waist, each and every bruise forming slowly - nothing a concealer can cover right?
"It's not like your planning to have another baby with that stomach right" Jake mocked moving away from me.
Ezra where are you? Ezra come back please! Ezra please I need you dammit! I love you for Christ sake! Just where are you?
No. Not once a day went by not thinking about the man that gave me all but happiness and joy, not once. It was almost like my ritual to picture memories with him and now look where I am.
It's all because of my naive self, trusting someone too much and to be left hanging with the result. He always said I deserved it and I knew I didn't, neither did Lotte! She doesn't need to be here, she deserves so much better.
After all her wonders about where her dad was, it always left me distressed and uncomfortable just lying to her when in real fact her dad left four years ago. I froze instantly at the time pass and sat up to my knees not noticing Jake already left me to fend for myself.
Ezra. He was the father of my child, our child. Nothing but regret filled within me just thinking about the day I found out I was pregnant with Lotte. All emotions crossed me when I held the test in my hand, just worry and nervousness.
It wasn't until we broke up, I found out. The day I was going to leave for college, he dropped the bomb of moving out of Rosewood and take on adventures with Nicole, no I couldn't ruin that for him I promised myself and he left before I even got a chance to say goodbye assuming that it would've been hard for him.
Ezra where are you? Ezra come back please! Ezra please I need you dammit! I love you for Christ sake! Just where are you?
I thought to myself as I brought my knees close to my chest in comfort with one tear trembling down my bare cheek. I wanted to keep it in, I promised myself. I would.
I promised to keep myself strong for Lotte but I let myself fall day by day.
But I knew that after hope and remorse, I have gave up eventually. Those days when you sit somewhere and attempt to see that hot guy again - yeah exactly what I did. I thought I would see him again but I didn't and like that, I gave up.
Back to reality, I slowly got up from my current position as quick as possible trying not to kill myself even more and let out a small wince and got up, walking over to the kitchen placing both my hands on the counter deciding if I should do it or not.
Ease the pain Aria, ease it. You know what to do.
In a haste I brought the shining object to my wrist, holding my breath in acceptance and slashed it across my wrist, watching the liquid seep out slowly then intensely.
One for Jake and the second for Ezra...
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