Love Lost

IV

Kayla

"I miss him too" I said as I rubbed Jazmine back.

I knew Jazmine took it harder than everyone. Her and Jamal was the closet. They shared a bond that was unbreakable.

"I just wish they give my brother back Kayla! Why they have to take him." She cried.

I closed the door shut and led her back to my bedroom I shared with Jamal. All of his things was still in place. Almost like he was still alive. Like he would come home any moment and change into his wife beater and basket ball shorts then snuggle into bed with me.

"I WANT HIM BACK KAY! I WANT HIM BACK!" She snobbed.

It broke my heart all over again. Everyone was so broken over his loss.

"I know" I cried "I want him back too"

"Mommy don't even act the same anymore. She puts up a front like she's okay but she's hurt Kayla" Jazmine cried shaking her head.

It took me a while to calm Jaz down. Once I did she was fast asleep. I had called Momma Pamela telling her where Jazmine was so she wouldn't have to worry before I drifted back to sleep.

2 months later...

"How my grand baby?" Momma Pamela asked while she moved around the kitchen.

"Good, the doctor said the baby is healthy. I'll find out the sex next month" I said while I rubbed my growing belly.

"Really? That's wonderful. Have you picked out any baby names yet?"

"No not yet. I think I wanna find out the sex first" I said nodded my head.

"How have you been?" She asked looking at me.

"I've been good" I faked a smile nodding.

"You know you can't lie to me girl! How have you been?" She asked again.

I took a deep breath in before letting out a heavy sigh "Honestly Ms Pamela, I miss him so much. It just feels like half of my heart is gone"

"I know the feeling baby" Ms Pamela smiled "But everything is going to work it self out"

"I just wish I could see him again" I replied.

"I know you do baby"

"Does anyone know what happen?" I asked.

Ms Pamela quickly turned around and started doing the dishes "No baby I'm sorry, no one said anything" She said.

"Okay. Well I think I'm going to go. I just wanted to stop pass and see you" I said getting up and grabbing my purse.

"Ok, and baby please call if you need anything or if you just wanna talk" She said stopping what she was doing so she could give me a hug.

"Okay I will" I smiled.

I walked out her home and got into my car. A birthday present from Jamal last year. I swear I miss him so much, and with our birthdays being right around the corner that made it no better.

It took me a good 30 minutes before I was finally home. I dropped my keys on the table by the door then kicked my sandals off.

My home felt so empty and dull now. I never went out. Only time I left my bed was if I was going to an appointment, going to get food, or going to get my nails and hair done. Even though I had no one to look good for anymore, I still liked to keep myself up.

I pulled my clothes off and tossed them in the dirty clothes hamper. I could imagining Jamal now saying something like Kobe! He was a clown like that lol.

I pulled on one of Jamal T-shirts and cuddled up with his pillow. I missed my baby like crazy. It was eating me inside that I wouldn't be able to see him again. Maybe I should've told him to stay home that day. Then maybe this nightmare would've never happened.

"Jamal baby. Please, come visit me in my dreams and tell me everything's alright" I mumbled closing my eyes. I dosed of pretty fast, it was a long day and I was tired.

I smiled once I felt his strong arms wrap around him. His strong Gucci cologne invaded my nostrils and a kiss graced the back of my ear.

Even when he wasn't here he still was. All I had left was his presence and our unborn child.

Super short super sucky chapter lol. But I just wanted to update this story. It's one of my new favs!

Hope you guys are enjoying it also!

Jazmine in the MM